The title is one of the tats I will be getting either this weekend or next week depending on the work schedule. My sister has already said she doesn't like it but I'm getting it anyway. I am going to explain what it means to me so that hopefully not everyone will think I'm absolutely nuts for getting this put on my body. Some of you will still think I'm crazy but chances are you already did so it's okay with me.
In my family you get a nice cushy gov't job or something just as "good" and stick with it no matter how much you hate it or you are considered the outcast. I obviously have been the outcast for the past 23 years and counting. They seem to think that nothing has come of the many jobs and stupid things I have done, the things I have been through so far in my life. They couldn't be more wrong. Yes, I do wander from job to job, relationship to relationship, etc. That doesn't mean that I haven't gotten anything out of it. Each thing I have done was just a small part of what it has taken to become the person I am today, which I happen to like. There are some things I wish hadn't happened, that I hadn't had to go through but at the same time those are the exact things that have made me stronger, made me realize who I am. If people aren't given the opportunity to think for themselves and make mistakes how will they ever know if the choices they made were the right ones for them? Just because I decided to try many things and move onto the next when that thing didn't work doesn't mean I'm lazy, doesn't mean I just don't want to work, doesn't mean I'm not responsible, etc. The same people that have accused me of all those things over the years are the same ones that come to me when they have problems so obviously something I do is right. Let me just clarify that I am not going into the Navy b/c it will make my family happy, make them proud to say they are related to me, or any other reason they seem to think I am doing this for. I am doing this for myself, I may change, but I will be doing it b/c I want to, not b/c they approve. If anything I am becoming someone who "wanders" even more. I am choosing to do something that will give me the option to try new things until I find something I enjoy, not stay at one place for too long, the same things I'm doing now except it will be my career.
I'm not sure if anyone will even understand this blog or why I am getting this tattoo, but it means a lot to me. As I said, I am getting 2. I am going to have my nephew write his name and b-day and get it put on my ankle underneath the one I went with his mom to get. He is a big inspiration to me and one of the few people that can make tears turn into a smile with something as small as looking at his picture, thinking of him, hearing him say "No, Aunt Holly, I love you more". It may seem cheesy but I am getting both of them done now b/c if all goes well I will be in basic in a few months and these will be the things that will make me want to keep going when it gets tough.
