I am going to use this time to vent because I am feeling pretty shitty right now. First off I want to say FUCKIN PIECE OF SHIT MUTHA FUCKER!!! I am not saying this to you of course I don’t even know you but I am saying this to me. Frustration is getting the best of me right now. I have been friends with bitches, assholes, fun people, and dramafied people. There are a couple of things people need to understand about me. If you will take the time to get to know me be real with me and have fun with me you will FRIGGIN LOVE ME! Whether or not you are scared I am going to fuck you over or gossip about you. I am here to say I am not that person; anything I say will be to your face. Beating around bushes (lol sry momentary dirty mind) is not my thing. I can be exhausting but so can every fuckin person out there. What determines the best people are the ones that will tell you to shut the fuck up and give you a hug when you are feeling low and whining to no end about your fucked up life? Ha Ha I don’t even do that, I think about that but then I wonder if the other person will be offended when I do that. Analytical mess I am! It seems that the "caution" tape is around anything and everything. I will have to rip the shit down but the day I do I really hope people are around to see it happen. I love being around people and talking to them about anything and everything. Most of the time I sit there and don’t say much because I am trying to gain information. The whole time I am wondering what kind of friend the people may be to me. I have anger that I think I need to release more so on myself than anyone else. Because everything that I whine or feel shitty about is ALL MY FAULT. Ugh I am such a fucking screw up! ONe day SOON CASSIE! SOON! I will redeem myself and shock the shit out of my idea! Ha I can’t wait for the day! Although I like dealing with others problems more than my own. I will learn, even though I have I will incorporate my knowledge in my everyday life instead of react with my BITCH ASS ATTITUDE.
I figure I am a great person, I’m loving, caring, funny, loyal, and always in a good mood. I may not say the right things all the time but what I say is to make you think, think about what your saying, hearing, and thinking. “Is it what you need or what you want” lol Yes you will call me a bitch and yes you will hate my guts, but then you will realize that I am always here to shed the light on your dark room which you have consumed with hate or anger or even, yes, resentment. I have just recently figured out that to men I am a good lay and a committed person when dating, in a relationship or just friends. Yea I may act like your mom sometimes but that’s because I am the eldest girl in my family and I had to be the understudy mom a lot of the time. So by me being that men run from me after they get laid and then meet someone else six months later and get engaged. I know it is supposed to be "meant to be" but it makes me feel like shit. Like Cassie is a good lay but not good enough to care about....Sad isn’t it? I just don’t know what to think about men anymore. I am always the one that tells a girl straight he’s not into you, move on, she never listens to me and always ends up getting hurt. Women cant change men I get that I accept that, what I don’t like is why are all the men it seems all looking for that size 10 with big boobs, long hair, yada yada yada and everyone else gets the desperate men that look like they jumped in time from 1982 and are on crack, live with their mother, don’t have a job or car. Life is stressful enough why cant meeting people and dating be easier? I’m tired, tired of looking, waiting, and dealing with all the bullshit. Holla if you feel me! Yes I know I am a white girl…..
Sorry if this is scrambled, that’s usually how my brain is! Wish me luck!
