therev69's blog: "All poems posted are copyrighted"

Since I had

To change

I have been

Beaten up

Twice

One of those

Hurt

Knocked around

A by a trio

And left

To perish

In the dirt

I keep

Getting up

Too selfish

To scare

Learning the lesson

And becoming

Aware

Facing another

Challenge

They expect me

To feel crappy

So I rely

On who

I am

And fight back

With happy

 I wanted to

Write something

To tell you

How I feel

But the words

Just keep on

Bouncing around

And never

Quite congeal

I know exactly

What I want

To say

But I cannot

Find the rhyme

For fear

You may just

Hate it

Making this

A waste

Of time

So since

I can’t locate

My clever

And don’t know

What to do

Instead of

Going for

Enchantment

I just wrote

I love you

Internal Abusive Affairs

 

It is true

I have

Trust issues

I don't believe

In what

I feel

I have the

Worst time

Deciphering

My imagination

From what

Is real

I want to

Have faith

In us

And accept

This love

Is what

It seems

To be

There is really

Nothing 

That you

Can do

As I only

Have trouble

Trusting me

Sunset warning

Staring to

The distance

Just past the

Edge of time

Figuring out

Everything

And then

Changing my mind

Understanding existence

While truly knowing

Nothing at all

Trying to comprehend

The big picture

Without grasping

The small

Is like leaning

Off the edge

With no knowledge

You could fall

My yogi, Lacey, gave us a mantra in class yesterday; ‘I accept myself, unconditionally, right now’. That means you may not be perfect, but you are all you have, so love yourself without limitations. See, without self-love, you really do not have love to offer anyone else. You can be in a relationship, but it would have borders. Some people stay together because they worry about what others may think. This is ego. Ego is misery. Misery is completely devoid of love. So today, and everyday, take a moment to love you, then, share it with those around you. If you have a special someone, make sure they feel loved without fences. Make love unconditional, as this is the only way it can truly be nurtured, and grow.

Happy Valentines Day!!