Once was dead inside
Once didn't know what it was to be alive
Sometimes it faded and sometimes returned
Didn't matter because I wouldn't learn
Tried to fight to walk a mile high
Thought on my own I'd touch the sky
Thought Goddess would bless me if I tried
If only I could release
Searched a million times in doubt
When it was hidden I'd sit and pout
If only I'd stop trying to stand
Just stop and let Him hold my hand
I wanted to find and I wanted to fight
So many an endless sleepless night
I Thought I'd DIE of crying so much
Slit my pain by wound to show
Thought no one saw and no one would know
But deep feelings sometime someone would see
It's not right and can't be me
By my own hand I feared I'd die
Too much confusion to cage inside
If only I'd let Him find me
Finally when I was ready to rest
I called to him and was done doing my best
He spoke to me through a friends and a leader's mouth
But this time in sorrow listening I heard His sound
A passion once forgotten long ago
A fire burning bright again did show
An enthusiasm uncontained
A Holy Spirit enters the soul
One like no other that could be told
Only with a submissive mind and heart you'll see
When you heed the call "Come to Me."
Wrapped in a feeling farther than emotions reach
Where the fire burns in the soul deep
This is where God touches me and gives me purpose
I am alive again
