this is something my baby wrote me write before we got together and hes had my heart ever since...3 years now

Jessica, I understand why what we feel is not what you wanted to happen but,
I do think it something you need.
I respect all the reason's we are'nt supposed to have these feelings
I dont want you thinking Im pressuring you into something that scares you
I'm not writing this letter to talk you into anything
I'm writing this as a freind who see's what you're missing in your life
I wish I could be the one to give you everything you need but,
I know that the idea alone puts you in a hard place.

I talked to a friend who has been in the same kinda of thing as you,
she really helped me to see why this is so hard for you.

I understand a lot more now!
I know what you feel for me saddens you becuase you cant indulge in how you feel
I understand how that makes you try to keep your distance
You have done something for Jason that not many people can do
When I see this I know how special of a person you are
As a freind it hurts me to see you hurt the way you do
Someone as special as you deserves so mush more from life
Fate has dealt you a hand that wasnt fair
The qualities you have should be used for more than just anurse
You have enough to offer to make anyman happy to lay in bed and hold tight at night.
You need to be held and loved
I see and strong woman in you but deep down
I know theres a weak side that needs to hear a man tell you how beautiful you are
A man that wishpers " I love You So Much" while hes making love to you
Fate as also dealt your Sons a cruel hand
Every kid needs a Daddy
That is something no kid should have to grow up without
Luckily I'm sure they have a father figure in there life,
But it still hard on them to not have the real thing.
Some people think its not a big deal,
But i've seen how hard it can be growing up without a dad
I get the feeling your staying to prove something to everybody
Your staying so you wont feel guilty
I think you have every right to be happy.
Please dont short change yourself
You told me if there was 8 days in aweek then you would have time for me
I know that you keep yourself busy 7 days a week
So you wouldnt have time to think about how lonely you are.
and keeping so busy keeps you from getting involved with a man
One day you'll see that you need to slow down and enjoy what life has to offer
Where you are now really has nothing to offer

Life is very short, much to short spending it trying to pretend you dont need to feel
Jessica, I know you stay cause it feels like the right thing to do,
But maybe its time to do something for you instead of everyboby else
One day you'll look back and regret that you spent your life trying to please everybody else,
And nobody tried to please you

I can promise you that having friends, education, jobs, and kids will not always dull the pain
It will not replace what your missing love is what makes life bearable
Without love life is so sad, cold and hard
You have to have enough good to even out the bad
Do you have that ?
I dont think you do without love the bad just aint worth it Im not trying to get you to leave and runaway,
But I admit i am trying to make you see that nobody else is looking out for your happiness, That is something you have to do,
I want you to be Happy
I want you to have what a woman likes and deserves
If you ever free your self of your cage
I would be honered if i had the chance to give you all that you and your kids want
Please give this some thought.
Dont deny yourself a lifetime of happiness.
Real Love is hard to find.
Ask yourself if you'll regret passing us up
Im trulely sorry that i have made you feel something you could not afford.
But i will not regret what little we've shared


this letter is not done yet....but i hope u like it so far.................



Paul Sims March 2k5