I speak of my friend a lot, but sometimes it is better to get the point of view from someone who is a good enough friend to tell you the things about addiction you do not want to hear.
I lost a dear friend in October of 06 and you can call him an addict, a junkie, a waste of life, If i hear those words come out of your mouth in front of me you are looking for a fight. I will instantly close myself up and tell you politely to go play with yourself in the backyard.
Everyday I run across people who are in need of help, working in Detroit I see a lot of homeless people. My childhood runnings i hung out with a lot of people later who became alcoholics and drug addicts, but now I run across a different problem wanting to support that person who is an addict. I am reminded of the pain I feel that my friend is gone and he was an addict. It really did not bother me, the world viewed him as a junkie, as a waste of life, and I have had a chance to spend some time with someone who the world may view in this same way, I do not know!
The part of me that wants to date this person asks myself why, the other part says I want to help this person and be the supporting person that this person needs. Then reality sets in, Do I want to live with the pain that is worse then the pain I feel of losing my best friend. A pain that has me in counseling, could I live with a pain worse then that from someone who says they love me, someone who one day could be a life partner and will hurt me to support her habit, will she ever get so depressed she turns to the bottle and drinks herself into alcohol poisioning and I have to take her to the hospital for a stomach pump, will i find that the bills are not paid and that we are overdrawn on our bank account.
I do not really think I want to live this life of pain it is far worse because I lost my friend from something I could have saved him from myself, do I want to sleep with this everyday and have it be a lifestyle. This I can not support, It scares me to one day think If i want to date a person who is an addict the life I will lead.
That is all!
