My World has been crushed; it’s been destroyed
All has been lost, there is no hope
I’ve been replaced by one who is weak
By one unable or unwilling to cope
I’m told I’m loved, but she needs help
I’m told to wait, be patient and trust
One day there will be time for you
But right now I must fulfill my lust
For the illusion of power
For the feel of control
And the rush of the high
I can’t let go
Addiction is a deadly beast
It takes over one’s head and freezes one’s heart
Consumes each victim from the inside out
Slashes at loved ones; tears families apart
It can be defeated; it can be stopped
You will need to fight; you will need to be strong
Accept you need help
Admit you’ve been wrong
It will not be easy; not even close
Temptation will hit you each day with force
I will stay by your side ‘til the end of the war
I will push you each day to stay the course
If one day you decide it’s too much
Push me aside and ask me to leave
My heart will break but I will walk away
Accept that I’ve lost and silently grieve
For while I want for this cycle to end
I know the choice must come from within
I’m merely among the rank and file
The battle is one YOU must ultimately win
~October 29, 2007