Morning Dove Fu Married To Lord Wolf's blog: "Addiction Drugs an Alcohol"

Almost 8 weeks Sober + 30 odd drug free.I finally have an inner piece.Made my 30 day key chain at NA.That was the hardest,cause temptation is always around my home life.Was wondering why they changed the Name.Then I thought maybe it was also a name of a porn site.Missed it here. Miss those awesome comments,Hannah + shy left for me.An a few others.Caught a bunch of trojan downloaders at myspace an they sorta fucked with my internet service. AVG free seems to work the best McAfee kinda sucks,but both together work well.An the antivar isn't bad.So many places I get caught into in my search for a Posible new lady Love,to possibly move to her part of the U.S. or Canada.Was thinking I was to fussy,but have decided to Lower my Standards,in my search for my perfect Soulmate.An Outdoorsy Gal whom likes to be Pamperd a Simple non materialistic.No make-up type of gal.Country,southern would be Nice.Compatability would be Awesome.

I was born when my mom was 39.Accident Baby.5 yrs prior she lost 1,doctors said she couldn't have kids.She didn't even know she was pregnant with me.She thought she had a Tumor.I was born C section,April 15,1957.I was very sick at 9 missed lots of school Hospitalize,fever 108,ice baths.pulled threw.My dad dies at age 10 3 days before christmas 1967,went in for Gallbadder surgery an had massive Heart attack.I was Devastated so was mom.Many nervous breakdowns.My grand parents mostly raised me.Around age 15 or so.My God Father started dateing mom.I hated him.Wined an dined her at all the exspensives restuarants.Prior to that she didn't drink niether did my Dad.He turn'd her into an Alcoholic,plus booze on top of her Valiaum's.She fell ended up Blood clots on her brain,was never the same after that.My friend Tony was on leave from Germany for my 18 th birthday,he took me out drinking,got wicked shit faced.Was sick as a Dog.My step father beat the shit out of me that night.So I cursed him,worthless piece of shit he was,couldn't even consomate marriage to my mom.To much booze + Meds couldn't get it up,thats another story.Couple nights after my drunken stuper when he beat me up.He sufferd massive Heart attack an Died.Mom sold my house 6 months later,she didn't need to sell it.he left her well off,Over $500,000 he left her,but he made her a stingy cunt.So off to North Carolina we went,to be with her Sisters an extended Familly.I started eating her valiams,I tried to get her to smoke pot.1 of my cousins was a cop.They put me in a Drug Rehab.2 x's there was enough for me.So I left went back to massachusetts.Went in the Service,blew out my r/knee came home,back to mass.Went back to school got into the drugs.in 1981 return'd to N.C. with my wife Laura an my Grandmother,to visit my mom.Visited her again in 1983.Last I saw of her we chatted on the phone a bit. but that was all.She is now passed on.I have many regrets in life an some of these regrets,still bother me today.At 49 time to clean up my act.What little time I have left.Will continue later.Thanks LC.Bit Cold today don't know if I'll catch the noone meeting maybe I'll blog here, instead.Peace

Relatively new here at the LC.Great place I injoy it hear.About me have been an alcoholic for 32 yrs.Also have done an been hooked on various Drugs as well.Last night went to my first NA meting in 10 yrs.With my new friend,Jennefer,whom I met threw a friend,I have been doing work on her car.Just friends but friends is better than nothing.I heard so many stories last night an many resemble my own.I started drinking about a month before I turn'd 18,that was the drinking age back then.Mostly Beer ,Wine.Started Smoking Pot at 18.Then I was introduced to Heroin.But in the sm.town Grew up in they didn't call it that.Had gone back to school was doing good when this new addiction took control of my Life.Back then a $5 bag,was alot.I fucked up in school as I was constantly going to the wrong classes.Then I went on to $ 10 bag aday.What a High it gave me,the Buzz fellt like Acid,Pot,an Qauludes all in 1.Then came the gut wrenching Withdrawlals.Took lots of Willpower an sickness but I got myself off it on my own.Qauludes helped a bit.Valiums.2 stints in rehab for trying to get my mom to smoke pot.Then started doing Acid,Mescaline,pot more booze pills etc.Then I got married first time at 22.We both did the acid,pot,booze.Wild sex parties 3-somes,group etc.Then she left me for another women.Started drinking wicked Heavy.I held my Job as lead Shipper Reciever.Still smoked pot Heavy.Then came the Cocaine yrs.Snorting it was ok at first but my nose started bleeding couldn't breath out of it,got hooked on nose decongestives.Then my buddy stated shooting up with his new Gf.Then I did,wow that was the best high,double pumping that serygne( Brain Fart).Ultimate high.Was very hard getting off that as well did it on my own an with help from NA.Still smoked massive quality's of weed.Always worked always paid my rent,Worked for my various habits.Worked hard played hard.Back in those days most of my sexual acts were with married or in a relationship women.1 of the bitches I brought home I couldn't get rid of.Ended up moving in with me.Then I got hurt on the Job.Workmens comp was late arriveing my rent 2 months behind.Paula says to me marry me or vacate your apt.I did what I had to do.Marriage of Hell.10 days later my checks started comein in.Drinking follow's Pain Medication addiction took control of my life again.Damn Stigma of the drug world.Then I lived with 1 of my drinking friends an Fishing Partners.Still Smoking Pot,doing acid,going to the Bars every night,an I'm only 28.In my mind this all stems from the falling out with my mother over selling my boyhood home.I left alot out,I'll fill it in with another Blog.then continue this one.I should get dressed now an go to another Meetin at Noon.Meeting aday will maybe keep my jonesing away