I'm not sure if reacting is the current correct way of "acting" at all.
When everything I'm accustomed to is all over the place, and nobody calls.
Much to my chagrin, I'm talented at deciding on a whim,
To walk away right now, would probably be a difficult social sin.
Might as well give in as usual, and go with the flow of giving in.
As usual, I'm tired, I'm anxious and worked up over,
The chance of new, of different of cool, of something I'm not quite used to.
How bout I forget it all, and walk right into this hypothetical wall,
Open up like never before, and give it all I have,
or get nothing back at all, that's what I'm used to.
Throwing caution to the wind, and take a deep breath.
I'm trying to crack this shell of my defenses,
and find out just what this life of mine is for.
L.R.S. 9.17.2007
