So its almost new years...and i personally cant fucking wait for it to get here. Honestly its not for the party! Its simply because this year~2006!~ can KISS MY ASS! It sucked. I lost alot this year..family..self confidence...self respect...and a bunch more.It all started out with my best friend and I dealin with her husband..which soon led to a divorce..(IM HAPPY FOR HER!) But it was hard to see her go thru so much hell.Then two horrible things happened almost at the same time. My dad had a fall. He's a tall man so he fell quite far! He was hospitalized and we werent sure if there was goin to be permanent brain damage. It was so hard to see him in that state. For the longest time he didnt know who we were. He couldnt speak,,to make any sense at all. He had to go thru alot and is still feeling the affects. When he finally was able to go home he was still kind of messin up on his words a bit..and then he had a seizure. Im telling you it was hard to see a man that was so strong and smart be so weak. He was an accountant...and when he came home he only had grade seven level of math. During all this my cousins dad got very sick with cancer and it took him very quickly..and passed away. That was so hard for me to see my cousin so heartbroken, I am so close to her..and the fact that we were both dealing with situations with our dads made it a very sad time. I do feel so lucky that i still have my dad...and I feel so bad for my manna for her loss. Then there was this fuckin move to the city...I never wanted to live here...but my man made a decision for us all...and ever since being here..we have had more rough times than good. I really hope this shit doesnt continue into the new year...I am plannin on getting a tat that will represent this year..and hopefully put all the shit behind me.
