JADED Southern Sex Symbols Group Member's blog: "About me"

Well so far I love my job. I am so happy to be able to work again. I know in time the euphoria of working will wear off, LOL. But for someone like me that due to all my medical conditions that havent been able to work for 6 yrs, its exciting and I dont mind some of the grumpy customers. But then again I never have minded the grumpy or angery customers. I do have a calming personality with them that gets them calmed down and most times avoid any bad conflicts. Well my shift is going to get some getting used to, LOL, luckily I am a night owl!! Well not much else to say for now. Hope all is going well for everyone. May the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you all.

Well so far I made it through the two days of training while being sick. My trainer said she was very impressed that I was able to learn so fast while being so under the weather and having a child sick at home. YEAH for me big brownie points for all my efforts the last two days!! All the supervisors saw how sick I have been and I think are very impressed that I was able to pull it off so well and learn fast and well. That means that I have been taken noticed on a good note, LOL, hopefully that will work for my favor later on when its time for me to be promoted or if I decied to transfer to another department. I LOVE IT THERE!!! Everyone I have meet in my department is so friendly and makes all the new people very welcomed. I love being able to help customers and direct them to where they need to go. I forgot how much I love dealing with the public, LOL. It has been too long since I could work. LMAO, I may just stay in the casino and see about going to school for it. I find the casino fun, exciting and since I am not in the same place all the time diffrent every day. I more than likely will not be in one spot all day, they move everyone around after lunch. I love the change up, so that way I wont get too complacent and bored. I tend to get bored easy and fast, LOL. My one big down fall,LOL. I do have to say that my life is finally taking a turn for the better. I am healthy enough now to work and I am. I am away from abusive people. I hope soon to have my divorce. I will go back to school next school year. I have been so blessed by the Goddess so far. I can't wait to see what the rest of this year brings. Well I hope all is going well for everyone else. May the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you all.

Well I made it through my first day at work. orientation was great. I had a great time there learning about the casino. I love it so far there, everyone is very friendly and respectful. Let me tell ya I was very scared to start today after not working for almost six years. Everyone made me and all the new people very welcomed. I have to admit it was very overwhelming at all the information they threw at us today, LOL. The casino is huge and the tour around it was confusing. I will have to spend time getting myself lost and finding my way around, before I will really get to know it well. I cant wait to start training. I am so excited about working again. Well I hope all is going well for everyone. May the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you all.

They sleep on cots made for just one Sometimes even with their boots on They awake long before the sun And work very hard to stay strong Strong for themselves Strong for their families Strong for the country they serve Strong for the flag that waves above They work and train In the heat, cold, and rain They sweat, they swear Sometimes wondering why they are there In the distance they hear gun fire And watch the hawks fly over They pray for their brothers Their loved ones and themselves And yet they go on Doing their job Determined to make proud The ones that have passed on They fight for justice They serve for freedom They cry for the fallen And celebrate the day These are our soldiers Proud and strong Serving flag and country Away and at home For the job they do We need to give our support So they know they are loved From the depths of our hearts ~I will always support out troops!! I try to honor all of them from the past and the present and to all that will serve. I have family and many friends in the military, and I was in for a brief time myself. It is a tough way of life but someone has to do it.

Dear Military Wife, I am an American woman that has no idea what is going on in the military other than what I hear on the news. I have never had to let go of someone so that they could go fight for people that they didn't know, people that sometimes do not appreciate or understand what they are fighting for. I have never had a sleepless night of worry because of a report that another bomb has exploded and I still haven't heard from my husband. I have never had to wait for months on end to hold the one that I loved so. I have never had to tell my children that daddy wasn't coming home tonight because he was so far away fighting for something that they aren't yet old enough to understand. I have never had to hold my head high and suppress the tears as I hear that it will be at least another six months of separation before my loved one gets to come home. I have never had to deal with a holiday away from the one that I thought I would share every day of my life with. And I have never had to feel the panic rising in my heart at the sound of a ringing phone or knock at the door for fear that it is the news that everyone is terrified of getting. For the reasons listed above, I can not tell you that I understand how you feel. I can not tell you that you must be strong. I can not say that you shouldn't be angry, because you "knew what you were getting into when you married a military man". I can not say these things because I have never had to walk in your shoes. What I can say for certain is that because of your unselfish acts of bravery and your husbands willingness to stand up for those who see him as "just another soldier" - - I will never have to walk in your shoes. I do understand that as a military wife you are expected to uphold a certain amount of control, but I never understood how you could do it, until now. I have figured out that you are not like other women. You are of a special breed. You have a strength within you that holds life together in the darkest of hours, a strength of which I will never possess. The faith you have is what makes you stand out in a crowd; it makes you glow with emotion and swell with pride at the mention of The United States of America. You are a special lady, a wonderful partner and a glorious American. I have more respect for your husband than I could ever tell you, but until recently I never thought much about those that the soldier leaves at home during deployment. Until this moment I could never put into words exactly what America meant to me. Until this moment, I had no real reason to.... Until I heard of you. Your husband and his military family hold this nation close, safe from those who wish to hurt us...but you and those like you are the backbone of the American family. You keep the wheels in motion and the hearts alive while most would just break completely down. Military families make this nation what it is today. You give us all hope and you emit a warming light at the end of a long dark tunnel. Because of you and your family...I am able to be me. I am able to have my family. I am able to walk free in this great land. Because of you and your family, I can look ahead to the future with the knowledge that life is going to be okay. Because of you and your family, I can awake to a new day, everyday. I realize that you are a stronger person than I will ever be because of these things and I just wanted to take the time today to say thank you to you and your family for allowing me that freedom. I will never be able to repay this debt to you, as it is unmatchable. However, I hope that you know that no matter where you are...what you are doing...what has happened today...or what will happen tomorrow...Your husband will NEVER be "just another soldier" to me.... And you, dear sweet lady, will never be forgotten. You are all in my prayer's everyday and I pray that God will bring you back together with your loved one safely. May God Bless You! ~Jaded~ This is a great letter to all true military wives out there. It is sad to say that there arent many true military wives out there that will stick by their man. To many get married to a military man and leave him high and dry while he is deployed now days. I have seen it way too many times to count. To all the women and men that stay home while their spouse go out to defend out country and our freedom stay strong and keep you chin up, we are all here to support and help you. You are not alone!! Thank you for what you and your family do, may the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you and your family!!

Well I talked to my aunt last night and my uncle's health isnt doing much better. He went in yesterday for a MRI and today the team of docs at the VA will discuss what they will do. Tomorrow he is supposed to go in for a biopsy of his tail bone. The only good news is the wound vac was taken off and the size of the wound is a bit smaller now. They will put the wound vac on after the biopsy to help shrink it more. So far the blood work is as good as we can expect at this point. The infection hasnt so far as of last night become syptic. So far the plan is after the results of the biopsy he will go into surgery next week sometime. My grandma and a cousin of mine are going today to visit with him. I would love to go see him and be there for my aunt while my uncle is in surgery, but I cant. I start work on the 29th and cant miss any days for at least the first 90 days. So my good news is hapmered by my worry of my favorite uncle's failing health. It is amazing how long he has already hung on. It tears me up inside knowing that he is in a lot of pain right now. I just wish he wasnt in any pain. Well I hope all is going better for everyone else. Take care and may the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you all.

Ok well after a month of trying to get a hold of my mom, I finally got through last night and talked to her. Well she at least let me tell her my good news before she told me the bad news about some of my family. I got a job WOO HOO!! Its at a casino here and way more than expected for not working for 6 yrs. Its full time at $9.27/hr and after 90 days benifits. So much more than I was hoping for, LOL. I talked myself from applying for a food server to a player club card rep. The big thing is that they are willing to give me a chance to prove that I am worth the risk of hiring me. I am so excited about this job. The casino is so huge that its like its own city. They are very big on making sure the employees are happy and content. This is the biggest casino I have ever been to. There is a parmacy there, woo hoo for me. I am hoping that after I get my pharmacy tech. cert. that I will slid over to their pharmacy. Ok, well told her more about my new job, but anyways. She finally told me that one of my aunts is going to have to have gall bladder surgery and that my uncle health isnt good again. My uncle from what she knows, his tail bone is infected and they are trying to get it under control before it goes septic. This makes a bad year for my uncle who has lost a lot of weight and his one good leg was amputated. It amazes me that all that he has been through and the fact that he is in so much pain that he is still fighting to live. I wonder sometimes if it isnt best that he pass on. That way he will be out of pain, that I so wish for him now. But only when he and the Goddess are ready will he move on. I am from a big family, LOL, my mom is the oldest of 12. So I know that with my grandparents health being rocky this past year and my uncles too, that this is the beginning of the long road of family moving on. I just hope that they pass on fast with little pain. Well I hope you all are having a better new year than me. May the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you all.

Well after many job applications being filled out I got a call, LMAO. I was filling out an applications online for a casino position and low and behold they called me before I was even finished filling out the job application on line. I was very impressed with the fact that I was called so fast by them and had an interview set up before I finished my application. I am happy finally I have an interview somewhere, WOO HOOO!!!!! I was getting very depressed about trying to get a job. I understand that people don't realy want to take a gamble on someone that hasnt worked in years, but we sometimes need to gamble and let it play out. You maybe very well suprised that you could be very richly rewarded. I am confident in my ablitly to talk my way in, LOL. I have very good people skills and love to work with the public. I do have an ability to calm down angery customers, LOL. I hope that I will get a chance to prove that I am worth the gamble. WISH ME LUCK!! I hope all is going well for everyone and that the new year brings good things to all. May the Goddess watch over, protect and bless you all.

It just amazes me that people today have forgotten the most commone courtesies and manners!! If you say you will do something or be somewhere then do it or be there. If you make plans with someone and can't keep them let who you made plans with know. I made plans for tonight to do something that me and my girlfriend have never done and was stood up. I am not mad that they couldn't make it. I am mad that they didn't let us know that they couldn't make it!!! Shit I am a very understanding person and if ya just talk to me and say ya can't do what we planed it's fine. I would rather be told before hand. Instead of waiting and being stood up!! So right now I'm a little pissed off!! I know by morning and after a few beers I will be fine with it all.