contentinmyjunk's blog: "a poem"

eyes glued shut from a man made material mouth weild close, hiding in fear of you wanting to shout, but nuthing comes out looking at my reflection, the sight i can't bare searching for a twinge of hope, but nothing seems to be there mkaing up excuses for the way you lay your hand blaming myself for your actions, because it's i you can't stand day in and day out i live in pure shame suffering from a lack of love lay abandon, num now i can feel no pain only if i had gone about it better would the results still be the same........ looking at my reflection, the sight i can't bare unable to look away i continue to stare

i wish i would have died before i got to this point where everything is upside down i wish the tears would have stopped before i got this far where im dehydrated mentally mornings i wake with a wet pillow soaked from the tears which put me to sleep that night a smile on my face so false even a stranger can tell inside my heart rate is steadly decreasing quick inhales but nuthing is helping lookin deep into my eyes you can see i can't breath im dying and im glad the time has finally come no longer do i have to deal with the battle because the war is now won letting go giving in im goin to fall with no worries on where i land i can't even breath and i dont care my body is shutting down for the last time and im finally at peace