PASSY's blog: "a poem!"

There are so many tears that you can shead.. Before you fall apart completly... Night after night.. Day after day.. Wondering why it has it has be like this.. Watching the tears fall down your face.. Breaks my heart into a million pieces.. Wondering how to make the pain stop.. Wondering what I can do to help.. All I can do is give you advise.. To what I think is the best thing to do.. Always know I will be here for you.. To help you threw this difficult time.. To wipe those tears away.. You mean the world to me.. Know that I will love you forever..

So many nights by myself.. Sit here day after day.. Searching got that one missing link.. Wondering if everything is going to be alright.. No one one could ever get in the middle of what i could feel for him.. So much to offer that one special person.. Does he even exsist anymore??.. Is there someone out there that could love me like i want to be loved?.. Thats all i am askin is to be loved.. Is it that hard to find one desent person out there??... More and more everyday i think it is.. I sit here and think to myself.. Is that certain person out there..

You are forever in my heart.. I will love you till death do us part.. You are my best friend forever.. That I never knew existed.. You came and brought joy back into my life.. You brought that smile back to my face again.. To have a best friend like you is something that I will always cherish.. I thank god everyday that he brought someone so caring,loving and honest into my life.. You are my guardian angel that he sent to watch over me to keep me out of harms way.. For that I thank you from the bottom of my heart to have a best friend like you.. My heart doesnt feel empty anymore.. Thank you for filling that void.. I love you always and forever Joe..

I want to be able to hold you in my arms..I want to be able to feel your touch...i want to be able to tell people that you are mine..I want to feel loved...I want to tell you that I love you with all my heart..I want to be able to kiss you all day and all night long...I want to be able to feel your body against mine while we are in bed sleepin next to each other...I want to be able to fall asleep in your arms..I want to wake up in morning with you lookin into my eyes sayin good morning baby "I Love You"...God do I want that so bad...I want to be able to wake up every day knowing that you are mine always and forever...Missin you everytime that you walk out that door...Waiting for that time for you to come walkin back through that door knowing that you are home to stay..Always and Forever!..MUAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHERE DID THINGS GO WRONG WHERE DID I LOOSE YOU WHY AM I SO HURT WHY ARE THINGS SO FUCKED UP I HATE THE WAY THAT I FEEL I HATE THAT I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT I WANT YOU TO HAPPY I WANT ME TO BE HAPPY I WANT YOU PERIOD I CANT MAKE YOU WANT ME I CANT MAKE YOU LOVE ME I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO I FEEL SO LOST INSIDE I FEEL LIKE I LOST MY BEST FRIEND YOU NEED TO BE LOVED YOU NEED TO FEEL WANTED YOU NEED TO FACE REALITY YOU NEED TO COME TO TERMS YOU NEED TO THINK THINGS OVER YOU NEED TO FEEL THE LOVE YOU NEED TO WANT SOMETHING YOU NEED TO CARE ABOUT SOMETHING SO WHY CANT THAT BE ME SO WHY CANT THAT BE YOU WHY CANT THERE JUST BE AN US? THIS IS MY SWEAR TO YOU THAT I WILL NEVER HURT YOU I WISH THAT YOU COULD TRUST ME WHEN I TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU WHEN I TELL YOU THAT I NEED YOU I WANT EVERYTHING TO BE BETTER I WANT EVERYTHING TO BE RIGHT I WANT US TO BE TOGETHER THIS IS MY WORDS TO YOU THIS IS MY LOVE FOR YOU THIS IS THE TRUE ME THAT WANTS YOU TO BE WITH ME YOU NEED TO WANT YOU NEED SOME LOVE SO WHY CANT IT BE US I AM DOING EVERYTHING THAT I CAN TO MAKE YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I WILL NEVER HURT YOU SO PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT MY LOVE FOR YOU IS THERE THAT MY FEELINGS CANT BE PUT ASIDE I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART THAT IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY TO YOU I LOVE YOU