TheAmbassadorOfRomanceInVenus's blog: "Thoughts"

A year of tears has flown so slowly not much laughter for the truly lonely Oh! there had been such moments - brilliant smiles when hope and trust had surged forward for a while. The stars had shone more brightly with you - life passed quickly as passions grew. Talking our language - knowing few understood wanting our spirits to fly if only they could. So many tears - all caused by laughter Saying beautiful things without regret after. Then suddenly silence roared loudly at me I sensed a fear - it really wasn't difficult to see that your dark demons were at war with us, discussion with them was completely pointless. So the sweet tears that flowed turned suddenly sour as disappointment weighed heavier by the hour. The thunder compelled me to think of you making my heart pound as you used to do. Alone at night, I longed for you to get in touch wanting to simply share our connection again so much. Then one night as the moonlight was dying you approached me and said it was worth trying. Tentative and with huge trepidation I let you back in without condemnation. Oh how wonderful - we flew higher than ever before you touched me in so many ways and I felt sure that only a physical divide would keep us apart as I sensed the passion deep within your own heart. We met again and on so many plains my heart was wild and free without restraint. Oh....but those demons were strong as they kept provoking you - saying we were wrong. They liked the taste of my bitter-sweet tears as they confirmed my deepest of fears. Then with the cruellest of blows you finally let the other side of you show. The sabre severed my heart from my head I needed our passion alive not dead. I have learned to live with the bitter taste of the tears shed - they were such a waste. Now you really shouldn't get me wrong I was never weak I am very strong... but how sad for emotion to travel this road where storms rage and thunder bellowed. So now I stand where I was once before sheltering from pain and wanting no more. Only you could now want us to still be friends but sadly I am resigned to the fact that this is how it ends. Twelve long months with so much more than four seasons all flavoured by love without any reasons. You gave me hope and helped me to grow ..but I understand now and know I must go.