SDCALHOUN's blog: "a couple things about me"

we all make mistakes some more than other but all we can do is overcome them, but i made one that might just be the worst in da world be cuz of my mistake i might just have lost someone special to me and i might never get them back. ive done a lot of things in my life that i never regretted and the first that i regretted something it had to be the most painful day of my life.ill never forget this person and ill never let them out of my heart all i ask for is their forgiveness and trust and believe the pain i feel now

What a year what a year, it was a year i could never forget, its a year that i repersent,its the year of my freedom, the year i discovered how to breath on my own, the year i transformed fromlive in a body to livin in this big world, may 8th 1985 is the day came out screaming with fear, it the day my life changed and i went from eatin whatever moms ate to drink bullshit ass milk, 1985 was the happiest year of my moms life her first born step into the world even though it wasnt a girl, little did she know her life would change faster than mines, 22 years later her baby boy is a grown ass man, now she watches to see if he becomes the man she wanted him to be or stay the way his was as a kid, the answer to that is only somethin the mother can tell u, 1985 the year i came to this world and made it a good year for one great woman.

somethings will never change, every nigga is gonna bang, it stays this way from state to state, contry 2 contry, some think its fun but alot of the thugs now seem 2 be real young, they dont know what they're bangin for they dont even know how to use the damn gun right, they aim like there drunk all the time and now all they wanna do is sit around an get high, they cant put in work right and thier mouthpieces get the block caught it might seem like im compaining but its only the truth, lil niggas today are as trust worthy as the police they get there hands on a heat and the whole set will never sleep.

i once met a girl whos smile was bright so bright that it changed my life, this girl keeps my attention keeps me think and never slackin, she gets all my free time, and she never askes why, she keeps me in her mind and she stays in mind all because of her smile im really happy now, maybe it was ment to be and im willing to spend all my time tryna make her stay mines

I have this friend whos the greatest woman in the world, shes slightly older than me but shes good at helpin a nigga in his time of need, whenever i have a problem shes always there to talk to, no matter what no matter who she can keep my head right so i dont let the nut case loose, we maybe in seperate states diffrent timme zone but i can always rely on her 2 be at home, i say this now i say this here to my dear friend u mean the world to me and i hope our frindship will never end

her smile shines althrough the day, u can see a twinkle in her eyes that shows shes happy,but for some reason shes blue every morning when its time to get up,her voice is loud u can hear her from miles away, and u can also feel the vibration of her comin your way, shes good to me so ive been good to her, but at night is the best part thats when she acts black,if u cross her she'll make u pay 4 that, but she been there when i need her the most, shes was always there when i was too drunk walk, when my cuzzin need someone to get him from school and she came quick when the police were invovled, i love this girl shes mines til the end only sortin people can have her as a friend.

I think i found true love. shes the only one to make smile, shes always there there when im feelin down. since there first time we talked shes been on my mind and it hurts every nite for me to say goodbye. seein her face keeps me sane a day without her could cause some horrible thangs. all i need is her smile to get me by cuz shes all i think about from time to time.

i woke up this morning and she was on mind,i turn to the left amd the the sight of her was blind. so i thought to myslf it most have been a dream but i could have sworn she was just layin next to me, so i contact her asap to see if im trippin, my mind is either playin tricks on me or i finally found that one that most men wait there whole lives for a dont even know when shes right in front of them, whateverit is im a take advantage of the situation and if its a sign i must keep in mind.

my mind is wondering my brain stops thinkin when i talk to this one girl my whole day changes. she stays on my mind when when im sleep or awake, i dont know what to do cuz ive never felt this way. shes not like any other female ive ever talked to we could talk hours and the conversation never gets boring we can talk for days str8 and my mind just wont let her go, she keeps a smile on my face. i want her to be the only person i wake upto every single day this is unuals to me ive never felt this way. But u know who u are and u know what u did to me so lets advance it before a nigga go crazy.

i just wanted everyone to know that most of this stupid shit i put in these blogs i actually did and i dont know why but i did the shit