My daughter. And this is a letter for her. ------------------------- On August 11 2004 you came into the world. It was the happiest moment in my life next to marrying your mother. At the same time I was also scared. The years have gone by and I learnt not to be scared. You brought me joy. All the moments I spent with you made me happy. Each night I was thankful that you were in my life. But I have also made bad decisions that have put me in the situation I am in now. I cannot see you when I want to and I cannot hear you say "daddy". When I am at home each night I think of you asking for a popsicle or chip. I sit and cry. I think of your mother as well. How, if I could, I would make things right again. If I could get the help, anyones help. I have lost hope my child and that is why I am writing this letter. I want you to know that it was not your fault. It was not your mother's fault. All the pain I gave to myself. When you read this I will be long gone. But I hope you will be old and wise enough to understand that life had become lonely and unbearable. Without you and your mother, my life became empty. Maybe time may have healed the pain. But I guess I was not strong enough. Please do not think that it was because I did not love you. It is hard when you lose 2 people at the same time. My love for you will never end my daughter. Wherever I may be, I will love you always. Love Daddy