People say that I am: Quiet, shy, sometimes that is, peaceful sometimes unsure of what people mean and that is a big deal with me. I never know when people are being honest so I guess I'm untrusting but for some reason I dont get jealous, I get sad instead. If you love someone you love them and that's it, if you really love someone and their concerns aren't sick or unreasonable I think it's worth it to change those things as long as you don't lose yourself in the process.especially for the one real love I have found after all these years, but that's another 6 months of therapy right there LOL! I guess Im just lost in a sick world and wish it was a better one.maybe I can change my little area. Things that have bothered me: Being used by being convinced by exes that sex equals love. I have just been too easy to manipulate and that is where I made my biggest mistakes. I just NEVER see it coming and I guess I'm too easy to use. Don't get me wrong, men are much worse but I just have been too easy to use. One of my biggest faults. I am looking for: Actually that would have be my best friend, she is everything I dreamed of all my life but that's a long story. Looking for friends, I have been used and hurt, currently getting a divorce and dont trust anyone much anymore except my best friend and they convinced me this was ok to meet people. I know what I want and what I don't want, I feel things deeply, my best friend is a woman, and I believe they are my God sent soulmate but I think people can have soulmates that are just friends. I am going to accept God's will for today and my life, and just try to learn to have friends and trust again. I want to live, be positive, look forward to each day and I love human contact, hugs, etc. and prefer women as companions or friends.go figure as much as I have allowed myself to be used, huh. Men are just as bad in that area so its not just womenI just dont trust anyone anymore except my best friend.maybe we can change that here unless the voices in my head don't shut up (just kidding!). I am a huge Beatles fan and John Lennon has been one of my heroes forever.IMAGINE that. Peace and blessings to all here and be safe out here. PeAcE LoVe & HuGsDoc