EvO's blog: "4 mel"

I was waiting, and waiting, and had little else to do,

So after clearing my mind completely I filled it with

thoughts of you.

How your smile brightens my day,

when I look in your eyes I see the way.

How in you I can trust and believe, and

share the truest, purest intimacy.

let go any barriers and just be me,

because there's nothing I could hide,

that you can't already see

I've said before I was completed by you

I see now that's not exactly true

we're two wholes come together to

form something much more grand,

and through whatever life demands

we'll walk hand in hand,

be it grass gravel or sand

I'll always be your man.

If I could put my feelings in words

or paint them on a canvas

What you would see is just how much you mean

to me

You are the be all end all, and above all

my forever

I can't picture a world where we're

not together

 

No matter where I am

a jail cell, a five star hotel

a plane a train

the fact remains the same, and will never change

I'm wishing I were with you.

I'll be loving you forever

Leaving you never

Each and everyday you make my life better and better

 

If I had a more vivid imagination,

My words would have no limitations,

My muse she lies in misery,

This happiness it stifles me

I search for words but they evade

I sit smiling and unafraid

Still after the words I chase

If only a tear would run down my face

The words would flow, this I know

don’t question it I’ve seen it before

Reams of papers on the unknown,

 peace, love, and joy,

the search for home.

All the things I’ve found in you,

Two hearts melded beating true

In reading this, one might think

I’m venting an anger, or trying to complain,

But away with the words, also left the pain

I wished I had met you , forever ago

 

But if I had

 

would I know what I know

 

would I see what I see in you

 

would I feel what I feel

 

and would it feel so true

 

I don't know, I'd like to think so

 

but it doesn't matter , these thoughts of

 

what could of been, long ago

 

all that matters is the here the now

 

the future to be, and as far as I can see

 

It's going to be you, and me

 

 

 

 

Once you said to me, after performing an incredible act,

No dirty mind, I'm not talking about that.

It was an act of selfless, kindness, far beyond the duties of a girlfriend, so far above, it could have only been an act of love,

But back to what you said,  you told me I should have got down on my knees and proposed that second, to which I say your right, but then again you inspire that feeling in me almost everynight.

But if each of those feelings were instantly acted upon, I would have asked countless times, and my knees would be gone.

I could sit here all night trying to type, searching for the words that mean enough to me, to say what I've found in you, but instead I'll just close, with the simple and true,

I Love You

The smoke from my cigarette stains up my ceiling

The smoke  from my bowl is just a new phase of healing

Weeping shades of indigo

Dreaming shades of blue

Arms around my pillows tight

Wishing they were you

I take you in in episodes

When I want the whole season

Having you with me

Gives rhyme to my reason

Everyone searches, Knowingly, or not

But when they found what they want

do they know what they've got

A lifetime I've searched, and come up empty handed

I've been knocked down, kicked around, and

on my face I've landed

But through luck, karma, chance, or just plain old coincedence

In whichever you believe

I've found for whom I've been searching,

and all I'll ever need

I've found someone

worth more, than all I have to give

someone who makes this life one worth the effort to live

completed by her, finally whole,

enthralled, enchanted by her firery soul

making me want to latch on and never let go

This lifetime, just won't be long enough

for this love that I feel is strong enough

to burn undying, eternally

 

I’ve done some stupid things, Tried being friends with those I shouldn’t, or couldn’t But the most stupid thing I could ever do is lose you And I don’t want to be stupid. Not eloquent, nor poetic, but I meant it When I said it Do words always need to be beautiful Especially if they are truthful In type I can flow Let my emotions go, But when face to face they come out Like blha blarblah blo Wonder if spell check will catch that? Why can’t I speak to you , like I write, I don’t know, maybe my words fail to match The beauty I see in you Maybe it’s just the fear, One of many I need to find a way to let go, That I’ll say something wrong, Lot’s of times, when I’m quiet, It’s thoughts of you, I’m lost in, How gloriously high You fly in My minds Eye Soaring before all others Reaching heights I knew not existed Around your little finger I’m so willingly twisted To me you are the one, the only, Whose arms I dream at night did hold me, These things I know, I live them I breath them, But along the way, I’ve failed to allow you to see them