To those of you that dont know me and wanna know how my complex mind runs keep reading, those of you that truly do know me, this is all shit you guys know. But i am best described as this...honest, loyal, and respectful...i live by three standards...Dont fuck with my money, my home, or my family! To me my friends are my family, thus why i have very few. Ive been thru alot of shit in my life, and thru all of it they are still by my side, even when my family turned their back on me. I have no regrets in life, if i did i would be denying who i am today...so to everyone that has ever fucked me over, thank you, i am who i am because of you...and to those that love me, i owe my life to you, you helped me thru times that i thought i would never get thru!
My life: sum it all up, i did alot of shit in my past, but dont for a second think im a typical G'ster...i graduated high school at 16, and went straight to college, at the age of 17 i was one year from my Bachelors Degree, majoring in Computer Information Technology. I got side tracked, and it got put on hold, till now! So i may come off like an idiot, but i run deepeer than probably anyone you have ever met! you wanna know more about my past, ask me! but be forewarned, i choose who i open my life to very carefully! and to those of you that think u have been thru everything, get to know me, and then ask yourself if you have seen it all. ive been thru more in the last 13 years than most people go thru in a lifetime!
got out of a 7 year relationship a bit back, done with it, over it and ready to move on! as bad as the break up was, her and i have since became friends, shes happy, and her man is cool, someone i can see becoming part of the circle. So basically, im not wasting time, nor do i have any interest in playing games. just cause im ready to move on, and settle down, doesnt mean im gonna move on with anyone, you have to accept that i have kids, and a past. further more i dont want to waste anyones time, if youre not ready to get into a serious relationship, dont bother. and that doesnt mean im looking to marry someone in the next couple months...haha! but you have to share those same interests as i do...at this point in time, im looking for someone to share my life with, my ups and downs. and to me, when i get to where i am in the near future, it means more to me that you were there when i was at my low, and not when i reached my pinnacle. You know what i mean? haha, i just confused myself, but you get the picture...
Me: i rarely get mad, only 3 people in my life have actually seen me get mad! I put others before myself...at times its my flaw, but its gotten me to where i am today. thru that i have earned the love, respect, and trust of those close to me! i over analyze things i should just let go...maybe cause i try to find logic behind everyones actions...the funny thing about that is, i usually make decisions off of emotion, and there is no logic in emoton...i dont know, that still confuses me at times...hahaha!
so where am i in life right now, not gonna say it, thats for you to ask me, and for me to decide if im gonna let you in! i will say this much, watch out world, the true Jayson is back, and nothing is getting in the way of what i want, and where i am going. Those that turned their back on me and thought i wouldnt amount to somthing, thats your fault...you turned your back on me, and ill remember that when i get there!
People get mad at me because they dont understand how i can forgive and forget soooo easily. I cant explain it, maybe its cause i dont let much get to me, or maybe cause i dont care, you can fuck with me all you want, but ill still love you, respect you, maybe not trust you anymore. as long as all you did was fuck me over, the second you fuck over my family or friends, is the second i dont know you, and will not look back.
So if i decide to let you into my mind, life, heart and soul...consider yourself lucky, and treasure it...cause you have just made a true friend, someone that will be there for you, unconditionally!
