would nt it be nice if we could all be what we wanted to be besides the fact that most dont even know what they want...
im talking to those of you that actually pay attention..im talking to the ones that do read these... have some mental intuition an dont watch the world just go by ..even when there rockin back watching it pass... this is for you .
i quit being a contractor after 20 yrs because i knew i couldnt make enough money fast enough to put a couple hundred thousand dollars in my folks banks account so they would actually quit working and enjoy what time they had in this life and not have to worry about how they would survive.
so i jumped in and started an online business an lost everything i own and then some.. that i didnt.
but as the lesson i learned back playin guitar, with a couple people that were very dear to me taught me... you had to live the blues to play the blues......and so it goes the only way you can fail is to quit. and now as it looks like i might just make it and see the two people i care so much about.. maybe have some life left.. and i can go about with what i always wanted to do..did enough, that it interfered with the other things in my life, but never had enough time and money to do.. play music and record a bunch of stuff id been playin and writing.. and find a place on the beach somewhere down around brownsville or farther down in mexico find a nice place on the beach build a little studio in the house...and watch the sun come up and go down on the ocean...and play a melody that maybe that special someone might someday hear ..and find me and know .that this was the place she was suppose to be..and finally get to experience the "last half" of forever........


anyone actually reading this should go listen to 2 tracks in my music both by my late friend "cant stop lovin you" and "one last ride " that is if you want to understand me a little


yes i am optimist very short on patients when its comes to stupidity.dont ever give people the power to get to me.dont fuck with my family an friends
thats a start