Wow I can’t believe another year has come and gone and like I do at the end of every year time for my annual a year in review entry.
Well I must admit 2008 was not a bad year for me. I did make a lot of changes and I have grown as a person. The first of the year found me making the decision to move out of my old apartment and back home. In September 2007 I decided to move in with a friend to help her out only to find out she was taking advantage of the situation. I was hurting financially, emotional, and physically. I knew that I was going to get hell for doing so from her nosey self centered mother, cause I have seen the old bat in action with others, I was well prepared. Of course I was right and she had so much to say about me to others, I guess no one in real life was paying attention to her so she resorted in saying stuff about me online. Of course they were all lies and no one paid her much mind. And quite frankly I wasn’t going to justify her actions or even give her the satisfaction of commenting on the things she said.
In February I went back to school and decided to get a degree in Web building and graphic designs. I also started making plans to go to Minnesota one of my best friends was getting married and I was the maid of honor. In March I turned 31 and started to make more changes. I finally got my butt into gear and went to David’s Bridal to start looking at dresses for the wedding. I don’t think much happened in April and May. As you can see the first few months of the year were uneventful, which I don’t mind I actually spent those months putting my life back together. I don’t remember exactly when but it was between that time I went to my first drag race show and loved it.
In June I went and got my dress fitted for the wedding. I couldn’t believe the alterations for the dress cost almost as much as the dress. I bought my train ticket to Minnesota. I also got to spend time with Kelly. We had not hung out in months thanks to my old roommate for lying to both of us. She introduced me to her new man Clint. He really is a sweetheart. In July we celebrated Kel’s 28th birthday. Well August finally arrived and my nephew celebrated his 1st birthday. Wow time goes by so fast. We had a BBQ for him. My sister in law bought two cakes one for eating the other for him to go nuts with, and that he did. By they time he was done he looked like a Smurf. Three days later I was on my way to Minnesota. I got to go to my first bachelorette party (talk about a total blast). The wedding was beautiful and I had so much fun. While there I was hoping to run into Shad and make a mends but I didn’t see him.
For those who don’t know the story here is the short version: Shad and I were best friends for 2 years and well a misunderstand cause a fight between us and we have not spoken in 2 years.
September has arrived and after spending a month in Minnesota it was time for me to come home. Even though I had a blast there I was happy to be home and see my family especially my nephews. I had been in school for seven months now and was so proud of myself. I was so happy with the changes and was still making new ones. I could see a change for the better. Well October was finally upon us and I decided it was time for a new look and well bye bye long hair. My nieces came to visit and we got to take all the kids trick or treating.
November came around and it was close to the two year mark since I last spoke to Shad. I thought it wouldn’t hurt to email him. I was wrong. He didn’t even acknowledge the letter and put me on block. I know I was wrong in a lot of ways and I poured my heart out in that letter. I can’t even describe the pain I feel not having the one male friend I could always trust and count on not in my life. It has been two years and I thought by now I would be able to let go but I have learned with each passing day it hurts more. Honestly I think this something I’ll never be able to accept and get over.
My mom, aunt, and cousin came to visit for Christmas. The holiday was excellent. We redecorated the house. I must say I love the way it looks. Well it is New Year’s Eve, the final day of 2008. Even though it was a good year to me I am not sad to see it end. I am looking forward to 2009 and welcoming it with open arms. I am looking forward to new memories and new changes.
Each year brings a new beginning and a fresh start and that is exactly what I intend to do.
I wish all a wonder, safe, and Happy New Year.
