I'm not the girl you think I am. It's hard to understand my thoughts half the time. I tend to second guess myself and have a hard time with decisions. I often chose other people's happiness over my own. Trust is a hard thing to explain for me. I've been hurt many times in the past, but who hasn't? I can be hyprocritical at times. Like: I want love, but I'm scared of it. Mostly I'm just afraid of getting hurt yet again. I don't fall for just anyone. When I do fall, I fall hard. Letting go is extremely difficult for me at times. I feel like there's so much wasted opportunity. Honesty is what makes me sane. I hate the thoughts of a guilty conscience. I love finding the perfect quote for every situation. I want to find what's in my heart. It's the most powerful feeling when you reach your full potential. Sadly, I'm not there yet. Tardiness & procrastination are my flaws. I smile a lot when I'm nervous or uncomfortable. I don't like being mean unless it's absolutely necessary. I keep everything bottled inside... Until I have a mini-breakdown like once a month. That's when writing becomes my escape. I'm in love with love. I want memorable car rides and nights that I'll never forget. There's never a second that I'm not curious about something. I tend to think too much & worry often. Satisfaction is pretty much my main dream. I know I'll get there one day, but waiting sucks. Accounting has been my passion the past 3 years. I don't know why, but I'm apparently I'm gifted in it. Last spring, I placed 1st at State's in Accounting 2 for FBLA. Business concepts are like common sense to me. After enrolling & the whole nine yards, I opted out of going to the University of Miami two weeks before semester start. People say I'm dumb for wasting my natural intelligence. But I knew I wasn't ready. A lot has changed since the fall though. I still get scared thinking of the future... However, I'm tired of stalling. I am trying to get back on track with my life now. I'm signed up for classes at CSM for spring & hopefully getting a job again soon. I may not be 100% ready yet, but I need the change. Like I said before, I don't like wasted opportunities.