Nati 1x1's blog: "10304"

wow where do I begin.. did she really walk out the door on me over the post I left crystal on facebook? how can she not know that I love her dearly and that none of this shit I have of mine or hers is worth anything to me without her here. I know I started this relationship on a rocky road. I know I am the reason for the way she has become. as I sit here feeling like I could jump off a bridge, I will not do so. I keep thinking of the memories of coming to see her what only seemed like a short time ago. 2009 started off as a horrible year for me. I lost one of the closest friends I ever had in January. Her and I quit talkin' for a couple months. Then after i picked myself up and dusted myself off from danny's death it hit me. I really & truly cared about her the whole time and what did I do? I took in a relationship scared outta my mind casue she was 500 miles away and started destroying it b4 it could start. I accused, I acted like a toddler. I can't explain my actions for the way I acted in those days & even when she got here I still was too stupid to see that she loved me & only me. I think her heart was gone by the time I wisened the hell up & decided that I was gonna take control of my actions before I lost her for good. So I did. Minus the here & there of being an asshole, I straightened up my act & took the time to view her feelings, instead of being stubborn old me and just going with my own.

I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART & THAT i DO KNOW!......