FATBOY's blog: "yeah"

YOU KNOW THAT SAYING IF IT IS TRUE LOVE SET IT FREE AND IT WILL RETURN; THATS BULLSHIT! Now there are people who say they have done the stupidest of things, but they have done nothing compared to what i did. I let my true love go! How many people can say they did that, none I bet. Now that she is gone I can't stop thinking about her. I miss her every waking moment of everyday. I can't stop thinking about her, my love for her just gets stronger as i begin to realize the distance between us is getting greater. My life is over. I don't have my true love, I don't have anything now. I'm just a waste of space now, I have nothing more to live for. I love her more than anything else in the world, but I feel now that I'm not the one that can make her happy anymore. I've lost that ability, I've lost myself, I've lost the love of my life. Everything was going good until yesterday, yesterday she had a good day with him. Whatever happened yesterday changed everything between us, I mean she still says she loves me, but I haven't talked to her all day except for a few textes and those stop a while ago, I either did something wrong and don't know it or the feelings she had for me are fading away and I'll never get them back. None of this would have happened if I didn't go to florida. It was all FUCKED up in florida by him. It hurts so much to know that I can't make her happy anymore, I seem to do this to myself cause this isn't the first time I ruined what we had together. I did it in the past a couple of times too. It took to long for me to realize what I had and how much it matters to me, but now I'm being selfish cause I don't want her to be happy with anyone else but me and world doesn't work that way. I ruined everything between us and I don't deserve to be happy anymore, I don't deserve to live. As much as I love you Sweetness, I think everyone will be happier if I was no longer around. It won't be so hard for you or complicating your life. I feel I'm just a burden to everyone and it would be better if I wasn't around anymore. Everybody would be happier. You wouldn't be in the same situation as your sister and you wouldn't have to fight with your parents when and if that day ever came that they found out that we are together. You and matt would never have to fight. You would have eachother and be happy, happier than I could make you. If I can't have you I don't want life at all. There's no point to live if I can't have what I want and need. I don't have anything to look forward to, besides the days we spend time together. But thats slipping away too. I'm slowly becoming a ghost in life..... I love you so much baby. I'll see you on the other side.

GUYS: NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO SAY ALL THE RIGHT THINGS TO A WOMAN. (HOWEVER YOU CAN SAY BAD THINGS AT THE RIGHT TIMES AND LATER SAY THE RIGHT THINGS WHEN THEY WANT TO HERE THEM, OR YOU COULD JUST SAY ANYTHING AT ALL , BUT THAT WON'T GET YOU WHERE YOU WANT TO GO EITHER. YOUR BEST BET IS TO FOLLOW YOUR HEART AND LISTEN TO YOUR PARTNER OR WHO-EVER YOU ARE TALKING TO...) GIRLS: YOU KNOW THAT GUYS DON'T ALWAYS SAY THE RIGHT THINGS, BUT YOU ALSO KNOW THAT WHEN THEY DO THEY MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE A QUEEN OR SPECIAL. NOW THERE ARE EASY WAYS TO PICK OUT WHAT IS REAL AND WHAT IS FAKE.,(IF YOUR PARTNER OR WHO-EVER IS FEEDING YOU A BUNCH OF BULL, THEY WILL SOUND VERY SINCERE AND BE VERY FRIENDLY.) NOW IF THEY ARE TELLING THE TRUTH AND BEING REAL WITH YOU, YOU WILL FEEL BUTTERFLIES IN YOUR STOMACH AND YOUR HEART WILL RACE. HOWEVER A GUY WILL ALWAYS TELL YOU HE IS LISTENING SO IF YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW IF HE IS LISTENING TALK ABOUT SEX IF HE IS REALLY LISTENING HIS EYES OR HIS FACIAL EXPRESSION WON'T CHANGE IF YOU MENTION TITS OR ASS. A TRUE GUY IF HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU WILL BE VERY QUICK TO APPOLIGIES IF SAYS SOMETHING WRONG, BUT THAT WOULD RARELY HAPPEN BECAUSE HE WOULD KNOW ALL THE RIGHT THINGS TO SAY SO HE WOULD BE FEEDING YOU BULL, BECAUSE KNOW ONE KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT TO SAY.... IF HE IS NERVOUS OR HE IS STUBBLING AROUND WITH HIS TALKING HE IS A TRUE GUY AND NOT FEEDING YOU BULL; HE IS TO NERVOUS TO DO IT.... ( GUYS LIKE TO HER ALL THE RIGHT THINGS JUST LIKE WOMAN SO THEREFORE HOWEVER A GUY ACTS AROUND YOU HE MOST LIKELY EXPECTS THE SAME FROM YOU... IF YOU BELIEVE YOU AND YOUR PARTNER ARE TRULY IN-LOVE THAN ASK YOUR PARTNER TO GET RID OF SOMETHING YOU DON'T LIKE FROM THERE PAST,) (WHETHER IT BE A PICTURE, AN OBJECT, OR AN ADDRESS BOOK IF THEY TRULEY LOVE YOU AND WANT TO BE WITH YOU THEY WILL GET RID OF IT...) BE CAREFUL ON WHAT YOU CHOOSE THOUGH SOMETHINGS CAN CAUSE FIGHTS INSTEAD OF HELPING YOU SO CHOOSE WISELY....