Life's a bitch. I'm in love with my best friend Beth and she knows how i feel for her and she doesn't have anywhere near the feelings that I have for her. So why is it that we as people can put so much of ourselves out there to people and just get shut down. I seriously wanna cry and just be pissed cuz i can tell and i know that she doesn't love me like i love her. i spend as much time as i can with her we go out to eat and i pay. i wanna be everything i bf or future husband could be to her. She's the best thing to happen to me in quite sometime but I hurts that shes not the one that i'm supposed to be with. I'm just bitching on here cuz i need somewhere and somebody to bitch to. I'm just gonna get drunk and wish that i could drink away the pain that i feel inside. but seriously why is it that we can put so much of ourselves out there and then get shut down. for some of us we are just destined to be friends and torment ourselves. I've always been just the friend that the girl didn't wanna ruin the friendship by dating or the guy that was seen as a brother. So what the fuck is wrong with me seriously. I can't get a girl for the life of me. Am i that bad looking or is my personality that bad that i can't find someone. FUCK IT i'm just gonna drink til something interesting happens. if i never have sex again i've already done my biological job and passed my genes on to my daughter
