Friends come
Friends go
You miss some
You miss some more and more
Life twist
Life turns
The road curves
The road ends
You Smile, laugh, and cry
You live, love, and let go
You stumble, fall, and get back up

What does all this mean? It means You have the strength to continue the fight and actually win. Even though there are many pitfalls in life. The greatest of it all shows it's face when you need it too.

As I sit here and think about this today many chapters are closing and those closest to me are fading but it doesn't mean tomorrow won't open up new ones.

I am left with hope and love and the thoughts of happy times. So many hurdles that I have overcome with so many great people by my side. My eyes can only cry happy tears to have felt what I have felt thus far.

Maybe time isn't on my side but maybe it is . No one ever knows. So today I will be happy. Happy I met you Happy I loved you Happy I can hold on to the greatness of it all.

It's never the ending it's always the beginning!!!

So to those who I wish the journey would have been longer with and to those who continue it with me. The love I have in my heart is never ending! Which means you will always be there :)

She doesn't know her love for you
she just knows she feels so different when she is with you

She doesn't know her desire for you
She just knows she wants your touch

She doesn't know why when you touch her
She feels safe

She doesn't know she needs you
She just knows that the thought of you makes her feel secure

She doesn't know that when you look her in the eyes
You can see it all

She doesn't know you already know
She is ready to fall at your feet and serve your every need

She doesn't know why when your gone
She feels so alone

She doesn't know why she feels the way she does
She just knows that in that moment she just doesn't want it any other way

She doesnt realize her heart has already taken steps her mind doesn't want to
She pushes those thoughts away as if they never existed

To her you are all she needs and she is not willing to face that

To her she sees no other the same way, but she isn't willing to jump right in.

She doesn't know where life will take her and as long as you are there she doesn't really care either

I was so in love with this guy once. When we were together it was like I was so lost in him and the good times we were having. We would lay on the couch or the bed or drive in the car and just laugh it was the most amazing time of my life. He was everything I had ever dreamed about. We split because i found out he was talking to this pretty girl so to speak. I could never compare to her and I told him it was over I wasnt even going to try. It's been 5 months and I still see him everywhere I go. He's not there but the things I do remind me of him. He trys to talk to me and I act like a Bitch I dont want him in my life anymore I'm tired of being reminded of what I once had. I just want it to go away. Yes i am greatful i felt the love but it is gone. Reality is that love isnt enuf even if its true love. I dont want to find love again I had it once so I know what it feels like. 

“Are you serious?” She said
“I never should have let you in my head
Who the hell do you think that you are?
I see you climbing over innocent hearts.
I’ll say exactly what I feel; “I’m not impressed at all”
You really want to know just what I think?
You’re lost.
I’m tired of always being second best.
Get out, and find that pseudo comfort
Somewhere else.”

We fall to miscommunication

And in that moment I might die
I’ll let you go; if you really mean it
All this time, but you didn’t know
I felt misleaded in my mind
We’ll take it slow
Leave all the people to their lives and find our home

I was tearing at the threads that you are
And it never seemed to get me too far ‘til now
“I’m not impressed at all”
You really want to know just what I think?
You’re lost.
I’m tired of always being second best.
Get out, and find that pseudo comfort
Somewhere else.”

We fall to miscommunication

And in that moment I might die
I’ll let you go; if you really mean it
All this time, but you didn’t know
I felt misleaded in my mind
We’ll take it slow
Leave all the people to their lives and find our home

She said, “I’m tired of always being second best,
Since everything this year has been a mess
Half my family’s gone for good so here I sit
I need a comfort in a boy that takes my hits
Do you remember when we met? We were alone
It was middle of the night outside my home.
We stayed up late just for the start of something new
I can’t believe your distance left us.”

We fall to miscommunication

And in that moment I might die
I’ll let you go; if you really mean it
All this time, but you didn’t know
I felt misleaded in my mind
We’ll take it slow
Leave all the people to their lives and find our home

We fall to miscommunication

And in that moment I might die
I’ll let you go; if you really mean it
All this time, but you didn’t know
I felt misleaded in my mind
We’ll take it slow
Leave all the people to their lives and find our home

Have u ever felt like when u talk no one every understands a word you say? When u wake up in the morning and the first thing u do is cry.. Have u ever gotten to that point where u feel urself falling but u cant stop it no matter how hard you try. It's really frustrating when no one understands your thoughts. You are a prisioner in your own mind. No matter how much u talk about it it still seems to hurt all the more. Does your heart really heal or do u just get used to the pain. Honestly i am tired of feeling i just want to stop feeling and be numb. Sometimes my judgment is cloudy and there is no hope in sight it just feels like all the decisions i make are wrong and nothing ever is right. I'm even going back and forth in this blog becuz thats the way my mind is working. I hate feeling this way. If i could crawl in a hole I would. At least no one could hurt me there.