Just a little off's blog: "what and what nots"

I guess there just comes a point in peoples lives when they just one day realize how old they have gotten. Well damn it it stinks. I am only 28. I got my hair cut about a week ago. well I have not have bangs in a long time. You would not believe the gray that has just blossomed. lol. I think of dying my hair and then I have people tell me that it looks like I had it professionaly done. But guess what all thse people are in there mid 40s and up. Then on top of that I work with a 19 year old. Oh it so sickens me that she knows nothing about...well anything really. I like her, but damn she makes me feel old. I was lucky with the aunt I had. Once I hit about 16 she was great. She let us watch "Rocky Horror Picture Show". I was great. Bah she never even heard of it(the 19 yo). Pulp Fiction? Nope. What the hell!? What I guess I am trying to say is that today I feel old. I am a child of the 80's. woo hoo lol. Being old does have wonderful perks though!

About 2 years ago I brought the subject of swinging. He didn't like the idea of sharing me. Well I understood and didn't bring it up again untill yesterday. I was planing on going to my friend Tricia's house. Well every woman my husband has been with has cheated on him. Well in the back of his head he just thinks I am going somewhere and "fun fucking". I told him I wouldn't do that without his permission. But that yeah I would if he said I could because I just would like something different. Well needless to say I hurt his feelings. But he says that I can. No I feel like a complete ass. But I am not unhappy with our sex life. I just was something different every now and again. I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him. What is a girl to do. I hate myself for saying this, but i would sleep with another man. I just don't see if difference if he would let me sleep with another woman. Hmmm I guess I have alot to think about.

well it all started....i went out last night with my husband. we had a really good time. well i am no longer in my early 20s and so now i get hangovers that are a bitch. getting over that and going to a shower at 2 and the to the sports bar and grill to sing our little hearts out. well my mother overheard me talking to me sister last week about going and she wanted to come. well i knew it was a big mistake, but i did it anyway. my mother is very narrow minded when it comes to music. she HATES rap. well she bitched the whole way there and the whole way back. i really wanted to smack the hell out of her. well to make a long story short I WILL NEVER IN MY LIFE TAKE MY MOM WITH ME AGAIN!!!! but it did end on a good note. my aunt robin went with us too. she said that when i nailed all the notes to a song i gave her goose bumps. yay me. and if you might be curious as to what song that was it was a broken wing by martina mcbride.