Chill Factor's blog: "Voices"

 Wow, what a year. I'm already a father of two now i'm going to be an uncle? What makes this really intrigueing is that my future niece is probably going to be a libra just like me. That is perfect.

 I haven't met my daughter yet, long story, i have my son and we get along great. That boy is a competitor for a four year old. I think he's more competitive than i ever was. I was just crazy when i was younger. For a little kid that boy is focused.

 I know i'm gonna be proud when he gets older. Now my future niece on the other hand, that is gonna be so cool because just the simple fact is that she is gonna be a libra. That's my shit. I know its my brother's daughter but its my niece.

 What i mean by fallen nevermore is that i have this new family tree starting and i always wanted my own family whether I was in a relationship or not. I'm gonna have three children with their heads on straight. I've never been so worry free in my life. I love being a parent and shortly an uncle and i wouldn't trade it for the world.

 I'm almost to the part where i can be how i used to be. That's a really high level i was at and i fell apart for awhile and now i'm getting myself together gradually and it feels good. As long as things keep going good or even if it goes bad for a little bit i'm pretty sure i can handle it. I'm stronger than i've ever been and that's actually kind of dangerous but oh well. So take it easy people. Hope everybody is doing good, even the ones that have pissed me off or cried and wimpered about dumb shit. It you're not over it now, sucks to be you.

Alright people, i erased my other blogs because they were getting out of hand. Apparently i haven't had much control of myself for awhile and now that i have had time to ponder and wonder what the hell am i doing i came up with this. I know i was taking some things a little too personal and i overreacted on a lot of stuff but now that i'm mellow i have zero tolerance for anything. Apparently i was stepping way out of my standards for awhile. I had a mishap and i feel back to normal. My version of normal that is. I'm still laid back. Almost nothing bothers me unless of course you want to cross the line. I just don't have any tolerance for the bullshit anymore. Things are gonna be a lot more consistant and i guarantee that. I'm finally at peace with myself and certain people. I don't hate anyone but if you ever want me to I can show you some hate. Hate is actually easier than being chill so that would be totally up to you. I will be at eighty percent on sunday and that's a plus. I have a lot on my mind so if you ever wanna know what goes through this head of mine, please, don't hesitate to ask.