Vanessa
Out of all my regrets u r 1. The last time i heard your voice was Sept. 17th 2001, on my B-Day. Worst of all it was on my voice mail, the same day i was to leave for Ft. Leonard Wood, the day id leave everyone behind for the ARMY. I miss you more than anything in this world, i cry everytime i think of how selfish i was and how i wish i just could see u one last time, to tell u good-bye and ask u y u didn't tell me how sick you were, y did u hide it from me, we were so close u were more than my God-Mother, u were my best-friend the only person i could turn to for anything. ive since learned that u passed away in november of 2001 and thats all i know, i need u right now, so bad. my life is such a mess, id give anything to turn back time, i would have went with u instead of staying here, i wouldn't have joined the ARMY and i would have the closer i need. i will never give up finding u, i love you with all my heart, my Vanessa.........
