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your not here I feel alone when your tired of that shit and won't to be with me walk away from it and come back

well I love and care about u alot but it seems I just make u mad every one around can lie on u and to u but I'm the only one who cant be forgiven I'm sorry u feel the way u do I'm sorry I love u because it dont matter to anyone it seems so I'm just going to be quite and if u dissapeared I guess I deserve it I'll leave u to your thoughts and if u come back u do if u dissapeared then I guess we have lost out

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well had a dream that u had someone so I guess that means I just need to give up and not try and fade away

well love means nothing I guess so I'll stop trying I'll be quite and let u dissapear out of my life like u want because I cant love what dont want my love heel with everything I'll fade away and u will be happy

well I did my best to make it up but I guess I'm the only one to lie ....I did my best to try and make it better loved u and cared and still feel that way I see all your happy pics glad your happy u tore my heart out by leaving and now your happy guess didn't take long to move on it's ok u had someone who loved u and u let a mistake mess up a year with happy memory but nun of that matters to u I get it ... now your free to hate me because I'm sure u love me no more and your happy about it I'm sorry u didn't want to fix the love we had and how I feel about u

but u can still love all around u who are lying but I care and love but that dont matter it's ok just shows how much love was there I still fill the same but want say anymore I'm sure u will move on

f it all the ones who were not there can tell all the lies they want it's ok but the one that loves u and owns to it does it and u walk away makes alot of since but it's ok no one else will hurt me cause I'm cold hearted

I gave her my heart and she walks away knowing I love her she has to see it that she ripped it out cause I loved her but now I guess she's gone back to drinking to chase my demons away cause she held them back but she couldn't see it but its al right keep my heart fuck this world it's all good my demons well run my life maybe they will take me down and take me to the next life or in between so I'm stuck in the pain and misery that way it pulls me under and no one would miss me being gone cause they would all go on but it's good I was meet to live in hell or stuck in misery its life and I'm use to it I welcome death to the next life never be scared the next has to be better when we get there we were born to die only two things that are for sure in life so should always welcome to it

oki guess u not talking on the phone to me or me only seeing u twice in a month means u care and love me dont know how that works but guess that's how u want it because everything I say seems to hurt u everyone says I'm cold hearted but when I shre feeling u quit talkin to me makes no since guess it will always be my fault no matter what I do u love me for who I was now u hate me for the same thing and who I am if this is how its goin to be I dont know what to do if u dont want to talk but not talkin is not goin to fix stuff and it's not helpin its pushing me away hope u can see it if u cant were in trouble or this is what u want

ok u love and understand that fine now I'll be quite maybe that will make it better

well when u dont talk to people what do they think .....good thoughts or bad we all know that answer but some dont see it that way

I guess when you're done being mad at me you will call me because I know you're not asleep yet

things are going a little bit better

going to be alone for new year's guess I'll go to bed and sleep through it at least noone can be mad and hate me there

I can backlash from things everyone else does and noone seems to see that

be pushed away and fogotten

I guess I get thrown to the side as normal and not cared about

life sucks people say they care but I'm not sure if they really do or they think they do