Writing about yourself isnt always easy espically when youve just had pointed out to you that the way you define yourself is through someone else for me its always been easier saying Im someones mom, or someones wife, or someones daughter vs defining who i am I spend so much time being hard on myself that I dont take the time to give myself my own approval thus looking for it elsewhere.




I am...



A mother to 4 wonderful children

A fiance to a wonderful man

A soon to be step mom to a wonderful lil boy

A daughter to two wonderful parents

and

A sister to two older brothers


At atleast one point in my life I have been a child without a parent,a parent without a child, a wife without a husband,and alive without life...now how much of that makes since..


How do you become a child without a parent? Grow up being completely invisible and you'll understand. A parent without a child again spend time without your children and you'll understand. A wife without a husband If you've ever been separated facing a divorce, or devoted to someone you cant have you'll more than understand that one. Alive without life? Spend over half your life wanting nothing more than to end your life, to wake up one day and realize you want nothing more than to live it that's the only way to understand that one. What made me decide that one heres where you learn about me.


A mother to 4 wonderful children: At 16 I gave birth to my oldest daughter and god blessed me with 3 more after that while it hasn't been exactly easy I will say they are my life and its always more than worth it. Gabrielle turns 13 this coming April, Timothy 10 a month before. Malysa just turned 7 in August and Kenny our lil bubby turned 5 in September. A constant challenge but one I eagerly wait to see, I want to see my children better than me, if its the only thing right I ever do in my life.


A fiance to a wonderful man: Eric has been my best friend for almost 5 years and while parts of me hates it taking so long for us to get here I know that life had to happen for us to be right when getting here. We just celebrated our one year anniversary and couldn't be happier. Eric has been a soldier in the Army since his sophomore year of high school. We just survived his first and last deployment, after many years hes decided he wants to be civilian and start another chapter in life.He is in all essence the other half of me, while I am stressed and uptight, he is calm and laid back, so i guess you can say he is the yin to my yang.


A soon to be step mom to a wonderful lil boy: Nathan will be 6 in December he is a handsome lil man with such a wonderful imagination I cant wait to be able to get to know him, it may sound odd but this lil man has stolen my heart and I haven't really gotten to know him..


A daughter to two wonderful parents: My parents have not only taught me but have also shown me True love. Despite the many trials and tribulations they have been married for 35 years now and stand even more united than I remember. They are who always gave me the faith to know without a doubt that my true love was still out there.


And A sister to two older brothers: I am the youngest of 3 and the only girl. While at times it seems as if my brothers hate me with a passion I know we have each others backs when or if the time calls. Despite life I love my big brothers and always will...


I have 2 ex husbands that as much as I want to hate them they helped teach me that my children need to come first in my life, that I can stand on my own two feet, that I can do anything a man can do all it takes is the want to learn how, and that as hard as it may be I can handle anything life throws at me. As much as I hate the situations after learning what they had to teach me I cant and dont hate them.


aside from that if theres anything else you want to know please just ask..I am a bitch but generally only when provoked..