I am 52,divorced.My first divorced. My second husband; Bert, died of a massive heart attack 7-11-98 shortly afterward my son; Jeremiah "supposedly" committed suicide 2-25-99.I believe that he was murdered. I spent along time after just trying to keep my daughter,Deidre,alive.Life at it's best was very difficult!!During this period,I made a super idiot mistake; an huge error in judgement,I married a boy... whom I divorced in Dec5,2005.I am bipolar-major depression,fibromyalgia(chronic pain and chronic fatigue in the muscles,tendons and ligaments.)Fibromyalgia messes up your sleep patterns.I have degenerative osteo arthritis and degenerative disc disease. I have only been diagnosis with the fibromyalgia in the past two years but the symptoms have probably been present for about 4 years. I am on medications which help me to maintain some balance. I have good days and bad days. I am never pain free; it is always just a matter of the degree of pain. I still try to have a good outlook & make the most of every day & smile. I try to find the best in everyone looking beyond the surface to see the person the way that they are on the inside. I like to play games on the p.c.:(never with anyones heart--to me that is purely hateful).I like to play board games and card games. I like to hang out with friends. I live with my daughter(Deidre aka Twitch)& her wife(Kim). I have my life.They have theirs.I can only live and do the best that I can do each day. When I love someone I love them with everything in me 100 % or not at all. I don't know how to do anything else.... Never have!! Does that make me vulnerable? Hell,Yeah! I have a huge heart,which usually ends up getting me hurt!
I would rather take a chance on love;I truly believe that it is better to have loved and lost that never to have loved at all!! I realize that this is a lot to take in. I want to say thank you in advance for taking the time to read it all! It is easier for me to tell you all about me this way than all the ????'s game.