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created on 09/15/2006  |  http://fubar.com/uhhh-my-blog/b2140

Finally!!

finally I can say that I am truely happy. I have a boyfriend who actually cares about me. I am with him alot. Alot of people that have met him like him. And! he's the first guy that I HAVENT met online. its refreshing because all the guys I've dated from the net have turned out to be bad. and the relationships ended pretty harsh. Although I am friends with my exfiancee. I can say I am happy that my ex broke up with me.

My weekend

So i am really liking this every weekend off thing. I've really been enjoying it. I can actually get out and do things. I was barely home all weekend long. IT was nice

Just my ramblings

I think Love, fate, destiny and all that do exsist. I believe things happen for a reason. Everything has a purpose in life. our lives have many paths. It's our choice to follow them or follow our own pathes in life. Whether good or bad, Everything happens for a reason. My faith in love and everything always seems to be tested. Like its one big game. I always thrive to cheat the chance to defy faiths little test, but it wins in the end and tests my faith. I never give up. I have too much in my life to give up on anything. I have my problems in life and everything. but honestly who doesn't? That's a part of life. I went through a rough childhood as many others have I am sure. But what made me weak in the past, it has made me stronger and who I am today. Call me a hopeless romantic or silly but very few people believe in what I believe in. I have always believed that when you find the one you want to spend the rest of your life with, you will know it in your heart, in your gut and in your mind. There's nothing that beats that feeling I am sure. I thought I found that feeling of finding the one for me, but it didn't turn out that way. I guess that was fates way of telling me it wasnt' meant to be. Him and I were better off being friends. Now he's dating one of my best friends and I am so happy for them. I wish them nothing but the best. I thought I found it again but something in the cards and it didn't work out. I wouldnt' change anything in my past as far as relationships go. Well I would change one thing but that was when I was 16 and I had my very first boyfriend. That turned out so bad. I got so hurt. He tried to date a bunch of my friends. Two said yes to him. I guess they weren't my friends to start with. Oh well, on to something else, I always try to set goals for myself and now at work I am full time, I feel like I can achive alot of the goals I have set for myself. Like moving out of my parents house and maybe moving out of state. thats always been a big dream of mine. I have lived in the same place my whole life. I almost lived in the same house up until I was almost 21 and then we moved to where we are living now which it wasnt' that big of move. We are two blocks away from where we used to live, such a big move right?I think I am ready to move out of this state. that was been my biggest goal I have wanted to do.And now I can save up the money. I am a detereminded person. I don't quit until I have achived what I was trying to and nothing is impossible. Not if you put your mind to it. Kinda like you can believe in love, fate and destiny if you put your mind to it. I do believe in happlily every after, Although life is hard at times I believe that true love can out weigh anything and if the person is your true love you can work through anything and everything. No matter what I do in my life and no matter what happens I am going to be happy I am going to be happy and not let anything get me down anymore. Life is too short to not take risks and if you've found another person who makes you happy, do all you can do in your power to keep them happy. If you fight, work through it, dont run away. That's what a couple is suppose to do, work out their problems. That's what makes a relationship stronger. Never let true love slip through your fingers. Because you may never find that kind of love again. Relationships are going to have their ups and downs but most relationships are that way. Nothing in life is perfect. Life is how you make it out to be. Don't live to regret the choices in either love or life that you've made. It might come back and bite you in the ass. Well I suppose this is long enough. and Ive been rambling. If anyone actually read this. Thank you and take care.

Through all the bullshit

All the bullshit I've dealt with is done in my eyes. I am not gonna fight anymore. I'm in a great mood and I wont let anyone ruin that anymore.

Im sorry I'm not perfect

There are some things that have been happening lately. Well let me say I am sorry I am not perfect. I am only human. I am who I am. I cannot change over night. that's near impossible. Maybe if people had the paitence to sit and help I would be abl to change. but everytime something goes wrong, they run. No one is perfect. that's how life is.

I hate my mind

I just read some shit I shouldn't have read. Now I am hurting

Sigh

I honestly don't know what to do anymore. So much shit is on my mind right now. I can't even begin to put into words whats going on in my mind. I got a bit of good news last week friday. I'm now full time at work. I now have a steady, stable job. A job that offers me benefits, Paid vaction and all the good shit. Which is stuff I really need. Well the benefits. I haven't had insurance since I was 19 years old and I am almost 24 now. A couple more months and I'll be 24. I am not really looking forward to the holidays or my birthday. Its gonna be a bummer.

I wanna go!!!!!!!

H.I.M. Papa Roach, Lost Prophets, Kill Hannah November 7 - The Eagles Ballroom On Sale Saturday September 23 @ 10am! Finland's goth export H.I.M. (His Infernal Majesty) grinds dramatic metal of high sonic quality with an underlying urgency that pulses with intensity. I fucking want to go to this!!!!! 4 bands I love and I'd love to see live. I REALLY want to go!!!
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