JagerBomb's blog: "Twists and turns......."

Its amazing to me how one can really grow to care about other people and consider them friends via internet communication. I've met alot of people on the internet that i truely consider friends and what feels really good is the fact that i know in my heart the feelings mutual! I ask myself, if say Nica, or Adam, or Joe, or Bella, or hillbilly, or any of the people i truely consider friends was really needing someone by there side cause they were say, considering suicide. Would i SERIOUSLY drop what i was doing for a few days and go to them and try to help them through whatever and the answer is genuinly YES! With out a doubt! Everyone I have become good friends with here on the LC I mean it when i say YOU FUCKERS ROCK!!!! WoOoOoOoOoT!!!!!!!!!

I realized today as i drove to work that my life has become one big party. I've got a great job, make good money, have AWSOME friends and a kick ass girlfriend and party all the time with out it affecting either my professional or personal life.(no drugs, i only drink beer n Jager) I spend my time doing the things that I love to do and have a great time at it. How is it then that I feel as if i'm missing something?? Everyday im happy and having fun from the time i wake up until the time that i go to sleep, yet there is a void inside of me that i cant exactly identify and it's starting to get to me. Maybe i'm just being paraniod because for once in my life my problems are pretty much non-existant and im expecting something dark in some sense, when in reality there is only light. ***If any one mentions religion or Jesus you can blow me because the concept of organized religion fucking REPULSES ME!!** I wish i could explain better the true feeling of confusion as it relates to an internal emptyness for no apparent reason....