49 Year Old
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Female
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Joined on August 19, 2006
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Born on August 2nd
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I wish to make friends.. So if you look through my site and find me still interesting. Feel free to add me. Or ask questions or whatever makes you feel free.There is this side of me that no one knows. It hides inside and still it grows. Handcuffs, chains, darkness, pain. Things that make me feel complete but only in my dreams. When they look at me all they see is what they want to. A plain jane nothing that would not do anything wrong. But inside I scream to be able to be me. Well here I will be me. Free to see what I wish I could be.I live a life that is actually two. Inside I fight for the ability to be just one. If only for just a small time.What class of vampire are you? You are a Servant of Blood, the lowest class of vampire. You are dependent on your master and very reliable. You have little or no servants of your own because you are either uninterested in being a sire, or are too weak to capture humans for yourself. You are still working on any major abilities, but mostly you take after your master. You can be seen as either too attached or unbelievably loyal to your beloved master. Just don't let yourself be used so much.Take this quiz!
49 Year Old
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Female
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Joined on August 19, 2006
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Born on August 2nd
Interests
To be swept off my feet. And to have no words be said. To have no control for just a while. To not be able to stop the heat that builds in me. To be kissed with such passion as to curl my toes. To be loved to my soul for just a moment. To not have to worry about emotional baggage for the moment. These are the wishes that make me dream.
I feel so empty and all alone.
I don't know what it means to be in a happy home.
I like to feel physical pain, to fill the boid of emotional pain.
I want to be held, loved and told it'll all be okay.
Instead I feel as if I'm just in everyone's way.
People trace the lines of their life.
Where as I trace the lines of my death.
When this all ends, Will I be left?
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Music
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He was the first of two to take my life.
He may have left my body,
But he also left my mind.
He took something that could've been dear to me.
What may you ask did he take from me?
My answer is my innocence and my childhood.
He crossed the line between adult and child and took my soul with him.
Some say in life that they are having their second childhood.
What happened to my first?
Don't I deserve a life?
Or did that die at birth?
Will my life and mind ever heal?
Or am I destined to always be molested?
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Idols
My heroes are simple and basic,
God for giving me life and saving my soul
Gaia for protecting and providing for me
The Spirits for protecting my hopes and dreams.
For without them and their help, I would not be ME!!
Video Games
So much pain and so much hate
I want to be free and don't know if it is too late.
I used to lie and now all I do is cry.
I remember too much to handle.
They say that my brain is depressed.
So much so it can't defend me.
This sounds so familar.
Only before it was her.
Heredity plays such cruel jokes.
Will I do it to him?
Or will I finally break the cycle?
Or will she win again and keep him forever??
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Today I signed away my life.
And I think I'm taking it pretty good.
I knew in my head this is what was neccesary.
But convincing my heart was hard.
I totally blocked out what today was.
Then she called.
I handled it. Never once breaking down.
I signed the papers, I even laughed.
She asked if I would be okay and I said of course, Don't need to worry about me.
Then I got home.
It hurt so much. I thought I'd finally gotten everything straight in my head.
But the pain about made me wish I was dead instead.
But I think I'm fine now. Not 100% sure. But maybe if I keep telling myself that I am, then eventually I will be.
I HOPE!!
For now I block it out, for now I pray to forget.
And maybe soon I will be able to.
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