Okay! Yes! I am writing this and don't care who the heck sees it, and if they try to use this against me in court. I have a right to freedom of speech and you can't take that away from me. Your no one special to take it away from me. The president is not even special enough to take it away from me. Its in the Bill of Rights and to do could end up in a lawsuit for infringing on my right to freedom of speech. So, now that I got that off my chest.
I am sick and tired of the lies being told about me. I am tired of the lies to manipulate everyone and everyone to make things go your way. You think thats christ like. Heck no! God sees what your doing and you know what I am leaving it in his hands. And people wonder why I am backslidden and not going to religion. No matter where I go everyone seems to be a big self righteous hypocrits that are trying to take me to Hell with them. I am sorry. Why would I want to go to church when most churches are out for their own interest and not for the good of their people. Oh sure. Yah! They put up a front as long as it benifits them and makes them look like the better person, but as soon as it doesn't benifit them they are the first to go and lie and manipulate to get things their way. What the heck is that? Church is supposed to build people up not tear them down farther. Church is for Unity not Unity until it doesnt benifit me anymore so its all for yourself. Come on is that what Jesus really wants. That's what it has come to.
Okay now that I ranted a little. I found out today that it is being said to my son that no women other then his fathers mother loves him. That I don't, my mom don't, Amy his step mom don't, any women other then his grandmother loves him. Now come on. I love my son with all my heart. That is why I have been fighting in court for two years now for custody back from his grandparents. No!!!! I don't love him at all. Yeah! Thats really it and I am Mary Jesus's mother. It's also being said that I am not getting the counceling that I am supposed to. Oh! So then the last 6 months of every week counceling is not doing anything. I confronted the person today and she said is it for this situation. Come on get over yourself. I am in counceling for my depression and anxiety which was brought on due to the situation with my son. How the heck is that not pertaining to "This Situation". Really! Then she said well why havent you and Ronnie called around to get therapy. I was like I am in therapy and for the in home therapy with my son. That is supposed to be arranged with my sons councelor which has got to be arranged by his gaurdians which have his medical insurance so therefore is their job to arrange that for Ronnie and I. We are only responsible for our individual counsiling. I have called before different places and have been told if I dont have custody of the child that its the person with custody that has to arrange that. Therefore, again, is my sons grandparents job to arrange for in home counsiling for us. So, its not like I am not doing what the courts ordered. They are not. I am so tired of all these lies being spread around to make me look bad. I am not the bad person. Atleast, I am not lieing to my son and saying that no one but me loves him. Atleast, I am not talking bad about Ronnie and his parents and his wife infront of the children. I have not. I even ask the kids to leave the room when I am talking about the court hearings or anything to do with the case so that they don't know whats going on. Can anyone else say they are doing that? Oh wait, they lie and do say they are not. I know they are because I hear things from my son all the time that he is told. How is that good for my son? It's not. How is that the best interest for my son? It's not. I consider that abuse to him if you ask me. That poor child has so much anger and confuse bottled up in him from all the lies he is being fed. I consider that verbal and emotion abuse on my son and CPS, the courts and the Gaurdium atlidem find that in the best interest for the child. Okay! West Virginia is fucked up!!!! If it was Massachusetts that child would of been taken away from them. The only reason they are getting away with it is because they are a Minister and a ministers wife. There's no way they would lie. My ass!!!!
That's okay who am I to judge them. God will have his way. My blood is on their hands and everyone else who has been trying to destroy me that is religious and nonreligious. God will hold you accountable when you meet him. I hope you have a very good explanation for him. I didn't believe any of your explanations. Until then I hope you live a happy life and think that your going to be alright because when you meet Him you will find out different. Oh!!! And can you save me a seat in hell so that I have a spot next to people I know when I get there.
