Silver Diamond's blog: "Thought for the Day"

It's been like...

DAYS since I blogged!

*checks my forehead*

Noooo...I'm not sick

I do want to say something meaningful in this blog

However

Nothing meaningful comes to mind

Maybe I should make a mumm to help me make up my already empty mind.

Wanna hear somethin funny?

I'm going to a Naughty School Girl party and I'm providing my EXboyfriend a babysitter for his current girlfriends kids so they can go to the same party. She has never met me. lol

Am I teh awesome or what?!

ok

you can go about your biz now.

Thanks for playin!

Yea, I'm bein a big meanie head today!!

Ran across this as I was surfing the fu.

Big sexy?? He got the big part right.

Why is it that men always gravitate towards the women that make them miserable?

They SAY they don't want a woman who is minipulative or controlling. Or one that is jealous. They SAY they want a woman to be independant and strong. They complain that they hate the bitching and nagging. But they also want her to be a Ho in bed. Willing to get on her knees anytime.

Yet

When they HAVE that woman, they throw her away for the EXACT opposite.

I just don't get it.

Men...pfffft

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can't live with 'em, can't get shit for 'em on a street corner.

Just a warning, this may get long and involved, so here's your chance to get out now! LOL

Ok, here's the scoop:

I was dating Bill for about 2 months and in that time we had a lot of long discussions about our likes and dislikes. I explained that I wasn't like any other woman in that I don't get jealous and I don't pick fights or argue. He agreed that that was a positive trait and wished more women were like that.

Anyway, he ended up breaking my heart and trust by fucking some other girl, who, by the way, KNEW he was dating me when she slept with him. Ok, so I'm over it now and we agreed to be friends, since we frequent the same coffee shop in the mornings.

So I invited him to a benefit for the Doernbachers Childrens Hospital where several of my friends bands were playing. He accepted with the understanding that we are going as JUST friends. We were not even driving together. We were going to meet there.

The morning of the event, at coffee, we reaffirmed what time we would both be there. Bear in mind that I have asked him several times if his new girl was okay with us going to this as JUST friends, and he reassured me that she was cool with it. I remember thinking to myself, "yeah right."

So, I got to the event at about 7:30, he was to show up about 8:15. He never showed up. I texted him around 10 to find out wtf? He texts back that he didn't show because all of a sudden, his new girl didn't like the idea of us going to this event together. He ended up having an arguement with her over the phone. (another point you should know is that she lives over 200 miles away.)

So what I'm so confused about is if men hate it when women get jealous, and pick fights and argue, why in the hell do they continue to gravitate to those types of women??

I just don't get it.

I guess I never will.

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Thank you soooooo much Ozzy!!!! This is amazing!!!

I wished on my star again tonight.
The same wish every time.
It has yet to come true.
But I still keep wishing.
I have worked all my life to be different.
Different from all the rest.
Yet all you want is the same.
The same games.
The same misery you claim to despise.
I can show you a new way.
A happier way.
All you have to do is be brave enough to hold my hand.
I've been reaching out for so long.
My arm grows weary.
Save me?

The pain is starting to ease.
It's still so hard to look at you.
All I can think of when I look in your face,
Is how badly I want to kiss you.
We were so good at it.
I suppose I will never have the answers I've searched for.
I know I deserve so much better than this.
I just want to be happy again.
Like before.
Everything was new and fresh.
Now it's dark, cold and empty.
I've developed a new emotion out of all this.
One I'm not too happy about acquiring.
It has been hidden all this time.
But now it has become my friend.
And not a good friend at that.
No wonder I kept you locked up for so long.
Am I capable of unleashing my new friend on the world?
I don't know.
But now that I know it is riding my coat tails,
I have a new found wall put up.
This will be a tough one to penetrate.
Will anyone try?
I doubt it.

I'm sick and tired of living like this.

All I've been doing is hibernating, crying and feeling generally sorry for my own ass.

Well.....NO MORE!!

I'm going to get up, take a shower, and get all decked out!

Then I'm going to morph Silver back into my body and go find me a young boy toy to use and abuse for a week then throw him away!!

Yea, you heard me correctly!!

Silver is BACK baby

Better lock up yer younguns!!

hehe

I'm gonna teach 'em a new way!!

Mmuuaahhhahahahahahahahaha!!!

WOOT!

That was uncomfortable.

I can't even look at him.

I did tell him that he was no different than every other guy that has fucked around on me.

So why then does it hurt SO much more this time??

GodDAMMIT I need to snap out of this!!

fuck me sideways!

GET A FUCKING GRIP SILVER!!!!