Chaotik's blog: "This is Me"

I cannot wait for February 2nd. I'm goin to see ya dead homie Blaze live at the Norva in Noroflk, VA. So anybody goin look for me and say wuddup! the majority of my time will probably be spent upstairs on the left balcony right next to the stage. But I will also be grabbing a drink or 2 at the bar and I will beo utside alot smoking. So yea, hit me up!

I'm not a redskins fan, but I did enjoy watchin them whoop them Cowboys, lol. Now if the Raiders could just do sumthin next season I'd be happy!

It stands for.... DRUNKEN GUITAQR HERO 3 GET TOGETHER SATURDAY!!! a couple friend just chillin, kickin acouple back and playin GH3 on the PS3 on a 65 inch HDTV!!! WOOOO!!!! Fun times... That is all for now. lol. just had ot let that out.

Wow. Last night was my homeboy Ian's 21st b-day party. It was a fun night, till I made a big drunken mistake, lol. Everybody was chillin, watchin beer pong, talkin it up, ya know. I'm drinkin everyone else is drinking... Well needless to say I got way to drunk, ended up spewing over by the fence, went to grab my last cig and I dropped it in my spew. Yea it sucked. Then called a ride to come bring me home, and i was waiting out on the corner for them. Ian cameo ut there started talking to me, we was chillin. Then his sister comes out there and now it's 3 of us chillin. Then this car pulls up tryin to get Ian's sister's number, but she told him she's married and the guy wouldn't stop. So she told him to fuck off or something of that nature, so he sped off and followed that up by screaming trick out the window so Ian's drun kas hell and mad so Ian starts yelling at um. They come back and end up throwing a soda out the window trying to hit Ian but ended up hitting D's car. Ian starts yellin at um again and they start poppin shots off in the air. Wow bad night, lol. All in all everything was fine though no one got hurt, everybody got home safe and sound ya know. I just know not to get that damn plastered anymore cuz even though that gun thing was not my fault, me being that drunk caused those chain of events cuz I wouldn't had been outside in the first place if I wasn't that drunk. But yea everything's ok besides a killer hang over, but I am building a tolerence up, thats the most I have drank in one night in awhile.

Man, I fell asleep like right after I got off work today. It was a nice rest from the hell we call life. It's amazing how some people can seem so great and turn into your worst nightmare in the blink of an eye. Just makes me wonder who really are my friends? Xmas is coming up and I'm not really getting anybody anything, cuz they don't deserve it. The year is also coming to an end and I've been somewhat reflecting back on it and have realized, I waisted prolly the whole beginning half of 2007, not to mention a lot of gas, lol. But I'm glad I went through it, cuz honestly I really learned the difference between love and lust and what I DON'T want in a relationship. So yea I have finally opened my eye's and am seeing how stupid I was and have a totally different outlook on life now. I have been at the bottom for quite some time now but it seems like I'm starting to pull my self up out of this hole, things are looking up for good ol' Chaotik in 2008. Wish me luck few friends I have on here. And if you are reading this thanx for actually wondering what the hell is on my mind. Until next time, peace and chicken grease.

Short and sweet... I go and get my oil changed today, and i find out I;m gonna need 4 new tires within 2,000 miles. I'm a music artists and I travel a lot. On top of that I have a weak ass job, so my question is. Anybody wanna donate some money to my, "Chaotik's 2 broke to afford new tires" fund? lol. I guess I'll figure something out. In the mean time check out my pics comment on um if you like. And uhhh *plug* Checkout my Rap groups music, I'll post the music player and what not. *end plug*

Iight last night was friday, I was hoping to have had some company over but that didn't fall through and I don't think it's ever going to fall through, but this isn't a, "my life sux" blog entry. So anyways, since my plans didnt fall through like I wished, I still had a lot of fun last night with my new found friends from Richmond, played some drinkin' games, makin jokes, ghost riding everything (lol kristin) and passed out. All in all it was a good change in my life that I needed, and I am finally feeling like my old self again and not worrying about the BS that has been the norm for the past 5 months. So yea a positive blog entry!!! HELL YEAH!!! not like anyone reads this anyways, but if ya do thanx and leave me some love or sumthin. Pz.

Well... Today sucked... just like yesterday, and the day before that and so on and so on. Monday I don't know what my problem was, well I do know what the problem was but didn't know why. I was just liked pissed off at the world. I was hating my job of course who doesn't hate there job. I hated the people at my job which usually I like the majority of the people there. I didn't wanna talk to no one except 2 people, and only one of them was there. Tuesday was a lil better but still hated my job and some of the people there. Wednesday sucked to cuz the CSM at my job was there and he's a big asshole and all he wants to do is clean the floors all damn day, on top of that he went on break at the worst time of the day and left me in charge and I didn't even really know what I was doing. Today was a lil better as well but now I'm in a bad mood cuz people don't do what they say they are gonna do. I mean seriously why would you tell someone you were gonna do something and do exactly the opposite, I can see every that happening every now and then but this seems to happen every single time. WTF is the deal yall? And I'm not ruling myself out here either, I just think the human being is one of the most effed up creatures of the planet. IDK it's like 8:40 now, I think I'm gonna go get a beer and finish this song up, then carry my ass to bed. Pz. P.S. Don't expect to many happy or normal blogs from me if you read this stuff, lol. I'm the type of person to talk about my troubles more than talk about the good times I do have. So yea really... Pz.

I am in a very confusing state of mind right now. I just can't seem to win. But oh well, take it as it comes right? Right... I think if a change doesn't occur soon and a certain person doesn't start showing they even give a shit, then I'm going to have to make my self move on, I was almost there b4 and then they came along and changed that with what seems to be empty promises so far. Just shows how much you can really hate someone but love them so much all at once. Well that's enough of my ranting, back to music bitches!!!