some recent events have started me thinking again. recently i found out a dear friend of mine was, according to the doctors, about an hour from death after waiting in the ER for some pelvic pain she had been having. come to find out she had a phlopian tube that was on the verge of bursting and had already hemeraged. luckly they rushed her in for emergency operation that saved her life.
then one of the women i love, yes i love more then one, found her dad this morning when she checked on him passed away from a long hard battle with cancer. in a way its relieving that has finally had gone and didnt have to suffer the pain anymore that he had for some time. i only wish that i would have had the chance to meet him.
yet another friend of mine had her father pass away from mutliple battles with cancer the first of the year. i did have the oppertunity to become friends with her dad. he was a strong man and had battle cancer for some time beating it once only to have it come back some time later and end his life.
i had worked for a man, that was probibly the biggest asshole to ever work for, who had battled cancer for a few years. on a personal note he was the awesomest guy you could know. you would have never known that he had cancer at all. although working for him i though that he was a big prick, he was still human and had his health to deal with. i still wish him the best in his fight to this day although we never talk.
i personaly have had my aunt battle cancer and win. yes you can beat cancer!! she has been cancer free for several years now.
kinda makes me think that cancer is a way of life for everyone. no matter who you are, weather its personal of through a friend, we all know someone who has had this fight.
i too had a cancer scare early in my life but fortunately i got checked out and it had nothing to do with the early stages of cancer which i had all the early syptoms of having.
i just keep thinking that i can achieve the things in life that i want before, if i ever do, get cancer. i dont wanna die alone. i dont wanna die with out having a family. yes i am in touch with my inner feelings. cancer doesnt scare me at all. like i said it feels almost like a way of life having it around me. what i truely fear is die alone and un acomplished.
a lot of you who read this probibly wont have any clue as to what ive been through or even care for that matter but i wanted to say something about it.
i truely cherrish all my friendships i have made throughmy years and hope to continue them and make more.
i realy do love all my friends!!!!
