I don't know who to talk to or rather who'll listen. So I suppose I shall blog about the things that've been going on. Well in recent times things haven't been all that wonderful. March was my 25th birthday.. Great right?!?? um nope not so much.. a few days afterwards my sisters fiancé passed away in a car accident. So in dealing with that over the last several months, other things have been going on. Such as having several of my friends move away, get married and or both. So along with that I have felt a loss in another way. Then to make matters worse, my job leaves me unsatisfied. I come home and feel that my day was a waste. I work the late shift and there for have shifted my sleeping schedule accordingly. I sleep until noon, get ready for work, get off work at 10 and re do my day all over again. That’s neither here nor there.. I only have one friend left to hang out with in town. And well he’s dying. He has Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome http://www.ehlers-danlos.org/index.htm ) and is a matter of time before he passes along. I do have my family, which I am grateful for and wouldn’t give anytime up with them, especially after recent events.
I guess what I’m saying is, that I don’t know what’s going on anymore.. what to feel, what to do.. I do not drink and have no desire to, since I’ve never drank before.. no smoking or drugs. Hell I’ve only “been with” two women before. So it seems as if there is a lot of life left to live, yet really don’t know which way is up so that I may hope to float again.
Ahh… not much on the happy side I know, but I had to say and write something somewhere in hopes that it’d help in one way or another.
