sayMYname2xxGLMZownerxx's blog: "The world is full of the walking wounded!"

I am so tired of men now days, if you can call them that! im tired of having to guard my heart from being completely stomped on and shattered. I am so guarded now that I could be standing in the presence of Jesus himself and still not realize how good he was. The few who have been lucky enough to get thru the walls I have built have continued to just devistate me more. What is the matter with people that they can get so close and feel something and then just turn it off and shut you out? Ignore you... stop talking to you and act like you are of no importance without even so much as an explaination??? Seriously are people so disposible to you? Are feelings and the damage you are doing so unimportant to you? Are you so self absorbed that women are just items for your physical pleasure and not human beings, not flesh and blood, not emotions... I wish I oculd care so little about others that I could just toss them aside on a whim.... Wait No, no I don't because that would make me no better then the very people who have done so much damage to me and so many other women I know.... I pray that for once the situation will be different yet the hope for something more seems futile... I just want to scream!!! The very people I can not seem to stop thinking about are the ones who I wish that I had never know... The lessons I learned have done nothing except cause me to doubt and fear the one thing that was always so important to me. I wish I could unjade myself, I wish that I could go back to thinking that people are fundamentally good instead of having the cold reality of the fact that there are more selfish and self centered individuals in this world then ones who truly care about others. How sad that is....