187339's blog: "the rambling explanation of me!"

so why is it that i get promoted to a leadership position and all the detail shit get put on me? becuase im reliable? because the other Sergeant in my squad, who has been promoted for a year longer than me, is busy talking, or just doesnt want to? or is it to see what i can handle? i think its the last question. i have already done most of the tasks of an army leader, and have continued to for over a year. im always the relied upon guy, and i guess im just pissed that the other sergeant i work with nevr does much of anything as far as the leadership shit goes. errrrrrrrrrr.

yeah aggravation..... it comes in so many forms. work, people, things I cant handle.... its all there. alot of it comes from people, because i am so totally different from the average joe(not trying to be concieted, this comes from my closest friends). im not overly intelligent or anything, i just use my heart instead of my dick to get me thru life. morality is a bitch, and maybe it has had an adverse effect on me but im at least out of trouble, and it keeps my mind open most of the time. but when u get the ppl with NO morality, and no pride. one guy i know has been called every name u can think of, but he wont get angry unless u talk about his clothes. no pride. other ppl in iraq with me frustrate me too. like they will only do the job they WANT to do, but when it comes time to go out of their way to help a co worker they just dont feel like they have to do it. what else is there to do?

there you go. me. i am a man, albeit a short man. always told that i am not the "typical guy" society has seemed to create, i nevr believe it yet strive to be a better man. somehow it opens my eyes to the piggishness of male society, something i despise. It is impossible for me to fully embrace the sleazebag personality of a typical guy. i always say i was born into the wrong century but realize guys have always been assholes. im not saying im perfect, but most of the time i come pretty damn close as far as treating people (especially women) goes. but no matter how well i treat a woman, it always ends up being the typical guy that gets the girl. yes i am a single guy. yes it bothers me. im not changing into the typical guy, but i am no longer enjoying the thrill of "the hunt". after years of unsuccessfully wooing young ladies that had caught my interest and watching some asshole get them, and then listen to them bitch about how guys are horrible and suck, i just luagh. its like society wants assholes to reign supreme and i will never understand that. ok enuf ramblin for one day! im out!