The long lost words of long dead poet's blog: "The Flag"

Disarmed in physical estate

Alarmed by visual mandate

In disarray without a fate

For my redemption it's to late

Disarmed, alarmed in disarray

Today the Taliban's my pray

My place in life I cast aside

And paint my walls in black and white

My feelings I keep locked away

And when I'll see God, I will pay

'Till then, I'll stay here and

I'll fight and give in to countries plight

And in this fight

I stand with pride

Despite opinions

On wrong and right

And what I ask

Is not a lot

Just little food

And place at night

I do not ask to understand

And i don't want you to relate

And if I could just close this door

I would... 'Cause war's an ugly whore

Decision's made

My weapon's loaded

The sights are locked

And I keep innocence blindfolded

I understand

When you object

But please don't hide

And be direct

I understand

Your disapproval

But please with patience comprehend

I'm just a tool for threats removal

I don't decide What's wrong or right

My role...

It's tiny in it's right

I sweat

I bleed

I she a tear

But in my work, I show no fear

That's not to say

That I have none

I'm only human

I've had my fun

If i could show u all the pain I endured
... I wouldn't
If I could make u understand what I've been thru
... I could't

If u been where I have been
... you wouldn't
Act the way you act
... You couldn't

But life goes on
I carry on
With heavy heart
And broken soul

My life simple now
It's black and white
And yet some thing's amiss
I dont feel right

Like part of me
Is thorn away
Like all i need is here
And yet so far away

And like a tiger at the zoo
I'll never be free
And i did my best to fake it
But I'll never feel free

So I stay up at night
Lost in side my fight
Im scared to close my wicked eyes
Because the dreams arent so nice

And only remeberence of death
Stays scared into this face
And it's that painful knowing
That to this day keeps me going

It thore out my heart,
It shred it apart.
I lost all my faith...
I even lost trust.

I miss all friends,
I miss all thouse times
When happiness strived,
When I felt so free.

Now even when home
I cant get away
From all of that haze
And mud on face.

I live with my guilt
My filthy old hands
Are covered in blood
And scars cover heart.

How do you explain
The war to some one?
How can u tell
The loved ones your done?

So dead on the inside,
So thorn and so gone,
So tired of pain,
So sick of regrets.

How do you explain
The death someone?
How do you reclaim
Your heart that's far gone?

Pretend to be strong...
While dieing inside.
And being so tough...
While feeling so gone.

Pretending to laugh...
While crying inside.
Pretendin to be
What they wonna see.

So broken inside
Life thor me apart
The answer I know
Is not always right

But I smile outside
Pretend it's alright
Ignoring the pain
Not asking for fame

Thrue this life go
Inside I feel lame
'Cause I'll carry on

And and in to the sin
I watch my self fall
At the end of this turn
It's so very grey

But I connot stop
I cannot give up
I have to stand up
And carry this flag

The flag that I love
The flag that I have
The flag on my door
The flag in my heart