I know I haven't been around much so I've been kinda sucky.
I dunno why this is the first place I think to come to when I haz issues.
Anyways my dad went back to hong kong for 3 weeks during easter and i didn't go because I had work and stuffs to do, I felt kinda guilty cos I hadn't seen my grandparents in like 3 years almost.
I bumped into my dad today and the first thing he tells me was that i should call my grandparents more often because they're really ill. My dad told me that whilst he was in hong kong my grandad had surgery for bowel cancer 2-3 weeks ago. I was surprised cos I did a video call with them whilst my dad was there and he seemed fine but my grandad actually had the surgery just after he spoke to me.
Dad said he was in a lot of pain after the surgery and that all he can do is lay on the sofa, he said the pain was so bad that he would rather die. What's worse is that my grandad was the cook of the house and my grandma doesn't know how to cook, so all they eat now is takeout rice boxes.
My dad told me this in the middle of a busy shopping centre whilst I was stood next to my housemate, I asked for a bit how he was and then I said I had to leave. I think my dad thinks I'm a robot or that I don't care because I was just like 'oh okay...i got to go now'. Even my housemate looked more shocked by the news than I was, and she was all like you're just a strong person blah blah blah. I don't know, I feel bad because I'm not feeling as bad as I think I should be. Who knows.
Anyways, after being away for so long I'm just a ray of sunshine huh?
Yea I'm whining but whatever.
Someone from here who I once considered a close friend deleted me from fu but we were still friends on fb so I sent him a message and asked why he kept me on fb but not on here and he replied with 'My Mistake *Deletes*'.
I mean I know I haven't been around that much anymore but wtf!? Did I do something horrible that I'm just completely oblvious to or something?
I'm starting to panic a little bit now about doing a degree that doesn't seem to have much of a career prospect (European Studies and International relations) I mean cmoon it's not like I'm gonna go on to be a diplomat or anything (also because I HATE learning new languages and refuse to). I was looking at some internships and work experience/insight programmes and they all seem to be business/bank based. *Sigh* But those jobs have a lot of what I'm looking for...apart from the NUMERICAL skills bit! I mean I'm not bad at maths if I'm taught it, but I'm NOT being taught it which is the thing and I don't really plan on learning anymore maths either.
So much for my dream/made-up job of travelling internationally to work for a big ol' corporate company or something.
I dunno why I thought I'd like that though, business sounds boring. I like history, politics and culture. Whut the frick am I gonna dooooo?
So first week of uni is overrr, well it's only induction but I start my lessons next week. I'm kinda excited the course units sound really interesting (I r studying European Studies and International Relations btw) even though I only just realised I'm doing a combined honours course...ah well.
Anyhoo, so I moved out. Kinda. I went home on a tuesday and came home on a wednesday, I came home today for the weekend. This whole moving out malarkey isn't really panning out.
I have a ridiculous huge room, a bigger bed...squishy pillows but I dunno why but I can't seem to fall asleep very easily. When I come home I just zonk out ASAP.
Weird, I thought moving out would be fun but it's not really. All my housemates are really nice, but I feel like mother hen. There are 5 of us, 2 are religious (one Christian and one Muslim so they don't drink) and two others who are very into the 'freshers' thing. I went to the student union bar and I asked for a wine list and they just looked at me like I was bonkers. I don't really drink mixers and I don't really fancy Pinot Grigio or a White Zinfandel...the guy had to go all the way to the cellar to get ONE bottle of a random cabernet sauvignon that was...okay (and OMG all the students drink this god awful drink called a 'snakebite' which is lager and cider mixed with blackcurrant...it's revolting). I didn't go to any of the 'fresher' nights out either...they're all kinda get mega pissed and hook up with 1st guy you see kinda things, plus all the events are held in places where I don't really have anything to wear for it. My dresses are too nice to be ruined by drunken students stumbling around and throwing drinks everywhere. It's hard to find others who are like me on my course. I think next year I'd prolly be better off sharing a house with post grad's instead. And even though I have my car I decided to get the uni bus today with my housemates (for the lolz) and OMG it was horrible. It's a free bus so and it was just fulla students. I hated it.
I'm not miserable but I feel like such a stuck up noob even though I can't help it, I mean I can't help it if I like certain things or think certain stuff is stupid.
Anyways that's meeee...what's gooooing on with you guys?
So I haven't been around much but guess what guys!?
I've moved out!!!
Okay well I'm paying rent for a houseshare but I'm still at home...the new house is huge and boring cos none of my other housemates have moved in yet. :(
I've stayed over a few times but never on meh own but then I just go home the next day.
The house is huge...my room is huge. Not entirely sure if I like that...gonna need to put some furniture in and make it a bit more cosy.
Maybe next year I think I will spend less on rent lolz. Right now it's stupid amounts just to pay for a room. (Means Imma have to actually really get a job if I wants a social life that requires spending).
Oh and I'm 21 so officially an adult finally even in the US! :D
So my friend just called me in the middle of the night...I was wondering what on earth she needed at 12.30am. She started off like 'are you at home?'. I thought she might need a lift home after a night of drinking or something but oh nooooo...
SHE WANTED ME TO CATCH A SPIDER!
I asked her if she was alone and she said her bf was there but he was about 3 times as scared as we were!
To be fair...this spider was BIG! I dunno why I thought I'd be helpful cos this kinda spider I wake my mum up at 5am to catch.
So we thought we would try the trap it in a glass method but it was on a wall and I couldn't reach./
So we got the hairspray out and I sprayed it to make it move to a easier place for me to trap it.
I sprayed it and it was movie which made me scream but I still carried on spraying and my friend's bf had run down the stairs nearly tripping over his own feet!
Anyway the spider fell off and then it was like stuck in a corner...I didn't wanna pick it up cos the spider was really fat.
Anyway my friend managed to get it in the glass and then she threw it outside onto the lawn, glass included.
Okay so the other night I was a bit naughty and munched on some 'special' brownies that my cousin baked.
OMG I just did a really big poot and I was like *sniff sniff*...huh?...*sniff sniff*...OMG MY FART STINKS OF WEED!
My friend made me have one of those yesterday.
I squealed like a 10 year old girl and wouldn't put my feet in the tanks until my friend dunked them in.
I had to fight all my natural instincts not to pull my feet back out/kick the fishes/kick my friend.
Gaaawd it was horrible!!! Tens of tiny fishes nibbling at my feet...FEET!It was so tickly I had to shut my eyes and clench my fist and imagine that it was not live wriggling fishes on my FEET!
I think I'd rather just had a normal pedi...
So just got back from the gym with a training session with my friend (who is like a MACHINE)...OMG I'm so unfit.
We were doing like circuit training type exercises and I had to stop after the first activity (you jump/squat on a steppy thing for 2 mins holding a really heavy ball)...I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA THROW UP! I had to go to the lady's and wait till the sickness passed, then I tried to run/walk it off and then I just felt sick again.
I felt sooo bad, he was training another guy too and I was already given the lower step and the lighter ball to train with (I had the kiddy version) and the other guy took the higher step and heavier ball, but he was still doing it!
I saw there were boxing gloves though and I really wanted to play with those but I just had to go home, I really thought I was gonna puke. :(
Ahhhh and I wore a new pair of sweats too and the jogging bottoms were brand new, and the inside was all fluffy and it all stuck to my vajoo cos they were really fitted. I look likes a hairy german lady.
Anyways...think I'm gonna stick to old people exercise for a bit...
EDIT: Buuuuuuuuuuuut I'm going to pilates later and then swimming!
Im sooo just gonna fall over in pilates.
When a male friend asks you what they think of another male friend of their's, does that mean that their friend might like you??? (This may be wishful thinking...)
Example, my friend Darren (not the one I was seeing but the one who I was mean to call and accidentally called the one that I was seeing! Anyways...) was asking me what I thought of his friend Ian, he also mentioned that Ian thought I was funny.
And he did kinda randomly mention this, we were talking about gym stuffs and then he goes 'Ooooh yea, how did ya find my mate Ian? Lol'...and then... 'He thought you was well funny lol'.