CHOEN's blog: "star on da rise"

~~UPDATE~~ HISTORY... My daughter has been cancer free 4 da last yr. But i can't tell.. Sofar every 3 months her lyphnodes swell up in her neck causin her alot of pain. Nd her face ends up lookin very distorted. She has been dealing with this off nd on 4 da last 9 months.. nd her doctor's keep doing all kind's of blood work tryna figure out what's wrong with her. They have check 4 viruse's but they havn't found any yet. A few week's ago when we where @ 1 of her apointments 1 of her doc said 2 me... i wonder if what we gave her iz causing this.. i didn't question her about what he meant. but it bugged me 4 several day's tryna figur out what she was talking about. So on her next apointment i asked her what she meant.. nd she explained 2 me that the test study meds may have cause this reaction. ~~WHAT THEY DID~~ When i 1st found out she had LARGE B-CELL Lymphoma cancer (non hodgekins) they told me that this was a very rare disease and that they wanted 2 try a different aproach 2 treating her.. So i had 2 sign alot of paper work allowing them 2 try putting 2 chemo agent's 2gether 2 see what happend.. so i did and now i regret it with all my heart. i didn't fully understand what they where doing untill now.. they have made my daughter a human test rat.. they won't take out the large growth in her neck or give her any antibiotics 2 see if it will help. They r telling me that they wanna see what happens 2 her lymphnodes good or bad. the only meds they will give her is tylonol with codine 2 help her with the pain. ~~~MY RESPONES~~~ So now im starting a foundation 2 help find da cause and cure of her type of cancer because being on a gov. medical they don't care if u live or die.. So we're gonna raise enough money 2 get her the best care posible.. n then find the cause and cure.. because i believe all these problems ppl r having with health issues r caused by what's in our foods.. water.. and chemicals that r being consumed every second of the day. SO PLS KEEP MY DAUGHTER IN UR PRAYER'S AZ THEY R STILL NEEDED THANX SO MUCH N GOD BLESS U ALL YA BOI CHO$EN 4ROM DA CITY OF ROSES

Yesterday i got my daughters results back.. and they came back negative 4 cancer... ALL PRAISES N GLORY 2 GOD.. So now there gonna do some blood work 2 c what'z causing her lymphnodes 2 swell up like this.. it's on both sides of her neck. and in her tummy.. they think it might be a virus...So we're still not out of the deep water yet.. so pls cont.... 2 pray 4 her THANX SOOOO MUCH HAVE A WONDERFULL DAY ALL!!! YA BOI CHO$EN 4ROM DA CITY OF ROSES!

IF U BELEIVE IN GOD, WOULD U LIFT MY DAUGHTER UP IN PRAYER. YESTAERDAY WE FOUND OUT DAT HER CANCER MIGHT BE COMIN BACK, SO DA LAST THING I WANT IZ 4 HER 2 GO THRU ANOTHER ROUND OF CHEMO. SO PLS PRAY 4 US. THANX SO MUCH. MAY GOD BLESS ALL!!! YA BOI CHO$EN 4ROM DA CITY of ROSES. P.S. WILL BE UPLOADING PIX OF MY LIL 1NS IN A FEW DAYZ

If u havn't heard my music yet.. check it out. Jus added a new song i recorded. Lemme know what yall think. (gonna record em agian. Jus learned my song'z) Ya Boi CHO$EN 4rom DA CITY of ROSES

Thursday, December 28, 2006 QUESTIONS - Posted at 2:32 AM "Questions 4 God" I got sum questions 4 God. so now im searchin 4 tha answers. why did u allow my lil daughter 2 get cancer. even though u healed her. it's still buggin me out. was it becuase i was goin 2 fast. and u had 2 slow me down. or was it cause my life goin in tha wrowg direction. u had 2 shake my life up and then tested. 2 get me on tha right path and so u can bless it. i was startin 2 4-get, that im "CHO$EN". thier ain't no turnin back,it'z already been spoken. i must of been provoken. 4 a min my life was frozen. when i got tha newz she had cancer. my heart was broken. was it because u new it was only 4 a moment. so u could brake me down,and then shape me like u wonted. what ever tha case may be. u got my full attention. now i think it'z time and im ready 2 listen. i can stand tha heat. so im stayin in tha kitchen. things is gonna change. they can't stay in tha same condition. 2 be cont....

DATE: 14 Dec 2006, 6:53 pm / MOOD: Impressed {HOOK) (EVERY TIME THE LORD, IS TRIN 2 BLESS ME. THE DEVIL IS RIGHT THERE. TRIN 2 TEST ME). BUT HE AIN'T GONNA GET DA BEST OF ME. CAUSE IMA PLEAD THE BLOOD FROM MY HEAD 2 MY FEET. PLUS IM MOVIN 2 FAST 4 HIM 2 CATCH ME. TRIN 2 ESCAPE. CAUSE I CAN FEEL DA HEAT. TAKIN CONTROL. SO DEVIL TAKE A SEAT. HEADED 2 DA NEXT LEVEL. SO WHO WANT'S 2 COMPETE. WITH MY NEW LOVE. AND MY SOUL RELEASED., ONE DAY SOON, IMA HAVE REAL PEACE. SO SICK AND TIRED OF STRESSING. I WISH GOD WAS RIGHT HERE NEXT 2 ME. 2 PUT THA DEVIL UP UNDER MY FEET. AND 2 WATCH OVER ME WHEN IM FAST ASLEEP. CAUSE I KNOW THA DEMONS R AFTER ME. TRIN 2 BLOCK ME. TRIN 2 STOP ME. FROM BEIN THA BEST THAT I CAN BE. BUT IMA KEEP PRESSIN FORWARD HEAVILY. NO MATTER WHAT THA DEVILS TELLIN ME. HE'S JUST FILLED WITH JEALUSY. CAUSE GOD TURNED HIS BACK ON HIM. AND CHOSE ME. {HOOK) (EVERY TIME THE LORD, IS TRIN 2 BLESS ME. THE DEVIL IS RIGHT THERE. TRIN 2 TEST ME). DON'T GET IT WRONG MAN. DON'T GET IT TWISTED. JUS BECAUSE U SEE THIS CROSS ON MY NECK. DON'T MEAN I BELIEVE IN RELIGON. I DON'T PUT MY FAITH IN THA GOVERNMENT. NOR THEM POLITITIONS. I AIN'T DOWN WITH BUDA. OR JAHOVA WITTNES. I DON'T CLAIM 2 BE A CATHLIC. OR THEM SO CALLED CHRISTIANS. THEY ACT LIKE THE WORLD IS THA ONLY ONE SININ. LIKE OUR SOULS IS MISSIN. THEY MUST BE TRIPPIN. WE ALL BACK SLIDERS. BUT GOD IS VERY 4-GIVIN. HE'LL 4-GIVE YO PASS. ALL YOU HAVE 2 DO IS ASK. TAKE OFF YO MASK. RUN REAL FAST. AND HELP THOSE PEOPLE THAT'S STUCK IN A TRAP. BECAUSE 2DAY JUS MITE B YO LAST. {HOOK) (EVERY TIME THE LORD, IS TRIN 2 BLESS ME. THE DEVIL IS RIGHT THERE. TRIN 2 TEST ME). BY YA BOI CHO$EN 4ROM DA CITY of ROSES

To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait" To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her. To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick. To every guy who has given her flowers just because. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. To every guy that she cried in front of. To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes To every guy that would give his seat up. To every guy that just wants to cuddle. To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what. To every guy who told his secrets to her. To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath. To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one. To every guy that believed in her dreams. To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them. To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams. To every guy that walked her to her car. To every guy that gave his heart. To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her. ...This one bulletin is for you... Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore... And because of this, there are not many left out there... I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not repost this cuz they care more about their image If you are a nice guy repost this with "We're a Dying Breed " If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way repost this with: "To Every Guy I found one my man Sean...

HEAVENLY FATHER - Posted at 3:20 AM {HOOK} (DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER. I NEED U RIGHT NOW. I WISH U COULD PICK ME UP. AND NEVER PUT ME DOWN. SEEMS LIKE IM IN A TRAP. WITH NO WAY OUT. IF U WOULD SAVE ME JUS 1 TIME. IT WOULD CLEAR ALL DOUBTS) DA SITUATION DAT IM IN. PLAYS WITH MY EMOTIONS. AM I GONNA SINK OR SWIM. OR JUS END UP FLOATIN. IM WISHIN N HOPIN. 2 B RESCUED BY SOMONE BOATIN BUT ONLY GOD KNOWS WHEN. IF DA WAVES GONNA KEEP ON ROLLIN. AND GO OVER MY HEAD. SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE, IM BETTER OFF DEAD. DO ANYONE CARE. THEY SAY THEY DO. THEN WHY DO THEY SIT BACK AND JUS STARE. Y'ALL THROW ME A LIFE JACKET. BUT THEY DON'T DARE. SO I GUESS IM GONNA DROWN. BUT IM LEARNIN FROM EVERYTHING. THIS IS ONLY DA 1ST ROUND. {HOOK} (DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER. I NEED U RIGHT NOW. I WISH U COULD PICK ME UP. AND NEVER PUT ME DOWN. SEEMS LIKE IM IN A TRAP. WITH NO WAY OUT. IF U WOULD SAVE ME JUS 1 TIME. IT WOULD CLEAR ALL DOUBTS) WHEN I GET DA VICTORY. IMA SCREAM AND SHOUT. AND GIVE GOD ALL THE GLORY. CAUSE LIFE WAS FOUL. I DON'T FOLLOW DA SAME CROWDS. OR HANG OUT WITH THOSE PEOPLE THAT ALWAYS WEAR A FROWN. THAT TALK ABOUT DA LAST PERSON,THAT THEY DONE CLOWNT. INSTEAD OF STRESSIN. IMA COUNT MY BLESSINS. BECAUSE WITHOUT GOD. I WOULD BE IN A DEEP STATE OF DEPRESSION. IT'S THE DEVIL'S WEAPON. MAKE U FEEL ALL SICK IN SIDE. AND POSSIBLY SEND U 2 YO DEATH AND HOLD ON, NOW STOP DA PRESS. I AIN'T DOWN AND OUT. I GOTTA GET BACK UP . CAUSE IT'S ONLY DA SECOND ROUND. {HOOK} (DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER. I NEED U RIGHT NOW. I WISH U COULD PICK ME UP. AND NEVER PUT ME DOWN. SEEMS LIKE IM IN A TRAP. WITH NO WAY OUT. IF U WOULD SAVE ME JUS 1 TIME. IT WOULD CLEAR ALL DOUBTS)

I LIKE MY WOMEN. CUTE IN DA FACE. THICK IN DA WAIST RIGHT. I GOTTA STARVIN APPETITE. & I NEED SUM SEX 2-NITE. I WANNA KISS YO NECK. CARRES YO BREAST. & LICK U DOWN 2 UR NAVEL. CAUSE IM READY,WILLING & ABLE. WOMEN R SO DAMN SEXY WIT THEIR CLOTH'Z OFF. I LIKE 2 CUDDLE WHEN I DOZE OFF. & TOUTCH YO BODY CAUSE IT'Z SO SOFT. & WHEN WHERE MAKIN LOVE, U'LL TELL ME PLZ DADDY DON'T STOP. 2 B CONT...

HEARTACHES - Posted at 3:22 AM {HOOK} (SOMETIMES MY HEARTACHES. LIKE I JUS CAME OUT OF A 5 POINT EARTH QUAKE. IS MY SOUL IN A DIFFERENT PLACE. SOMTIMES IT FEELS LIKE MY SOUL IS IN A DIFFERENT STATE.) I WISH I COULD ESCAPE. BUT I GOT 2 MANY RESPONSIBILITIES ON MY PLATE. I NEED A CLEAN SLATE. GOOD TIMES ARE ABOUT 2 COME LIKES ITS A BRAND NEW DAY. BUT I WISH THEY WOULD HURRY UP CAUSE I JUS CAN'T WAIT. I NEED 2 KEEP DA FAITH. CAUSE THE DEVIL'S TRIN 2 SNEAK IN AND FEEL MY HEART WITH HATE. WHEN IM FEELIN ENRAGED. I NEED 2 BE LOCKED UP AND DA KEY THROWN AWAY. SOMETIMES I DON'T KNOW WHAT 2 SAY. AND IT FEELS LIKE MY MIND HAS JUS BEEN REPLACED. LIFE IS LIKE A POKER GAME. WHEN LIFE DEALS ME A BAD HAND I CAN'T KEEP A STRAIGHT FACE. SOME SAY IT'S A PEICE OF CAKE. I WEAR MY EMOTIONS ON MY SLEEVE'S CAUSE IT'S HARD 4 ME 2 FAKE. IMA TRY 2 FAKE IT TILL I MAKE IT. I TRY 2 HIDE WHAT IM FEELIN CAUSE I DON'T WANT 2 FACE IT. ARGUMENTS STARTS WHEN I SAY SHIT. BECAUSE THE TRUTHS HURTS AND MOST PEOPLE CAN'T TAKE IT. KEEP RUNNIN IN CIRCLES RACIN. WHEN IT'S ALL SAID AND DONE. U FIND OUT UR IN LAST PLACE SHIT. MAYBE U WOULD OF WON IF U IF U DIDN'T TRY 2 FAKE. {HOOK} (SOMTIMES MY HEART ACHES LIKE I JUS CAME OUT OF A 5 POINT EARTH QUAKE. IS MY SOUL IN A DIFFERENT PLACE. SOMTIMES IT FEELS LIKE MY SOUL IS IN A DIFFERENT STATE.) WHY WHY DID LIFE HAVE 2 BE THIS WAY. WHEN WE WHERE KIDS. ALL WE HAD 2 DO WAS PLAY. AND WHEN WE GET GROWN. THERE'S SO MANY BILLS 2 PAY. AND WHEN WE WHERE KIDS. WE DIDN'T WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING. BUT NOW THAT WHERE GROWN. WE STRESS ABOUT EVERY LIL THING. WE USE 2 DREAM ABOUT BEIN RICH. WHEN WE WHERE JUS LIL KIDS. NOW THAT WHERE GROWN. WHERE ALLWAYS IN DA PITS. WHEN WE WHERE LIL KIDS. WE WOULD STARE AT DA STARS. AND NOW WHERE GROWN. WE GET DRUNK AT THA BARS. LIL KIDS DOIN . WHAT LIL KIDS DO. GROWN UPS PURSUIN. WHAT GROWN UPS PURSUE. LIL KIDS WILL DO JUS ABOUT ANYTHANG. BUT WHEN WE GET GROWN ALL THAT WILL CHANGE. {HOOK} (SOME TIMES MY HEART ACHES. LIKE I JUS CAME OUT OF A 5 POINT EARTH QUAKE. IS MY SOUL IN A DIFFERENT PLACE. SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE MY SOUL IS IN A DIFFERENT STATE.) BY "CHOSEN"