Received a email asking why I have been so un sociable. Well here it is. I am not one to out my buisness, problems let alone talk about them. Very few selected people I feel I can just vent on. So here is the story.
My 20 year old son has struggled through problems with drugs and alcohol since the age of 13. I didn't know this until I put him into rehab at the age of 16 that it started out so young. He stayed clean for a year and a half, then he turned the big 18. He figured since he was an adult he wouldn't have mom riding his ass about his drinking or pot smoking.
I don't have a problem with partying (occasionally) but when all ur income is being used to support the habit it becomes a problem. I am not here to judge those of you that are users, this is my son I am talking about. Anyways, it has become more of a problem recently that has led to stealing from me etc.... So he was contacted by a army recruiter. Of course all they care about is the 2,000 $ bonus per person that joins. I was not for this at all. But he told me he was joining the reserves. As weeks went on I learned to sorta accept this. I have always supported my kids decisions but this one I just had a hard time supporting. Well he received a letter of thanks for joining a 8 year active duty. Well of course I broke down in tears. I am the kind of mom that my kids can and do tell me just about everything. But this he chose not to. He wasn't planning on it either until he left. So of course this was even harder to grasp.
I will not go into problems I have with my family. But to shorten the story, I am being blamed for his joining. My kids have always been bought from my mom, wich has caused many problems with manyyyyyyyy others in our relationship that I had to cut ties between me and her. Of course it was the hardest thing I had t do, but needed to.
So he will be shipped out on the 10, but won't be able to see family after the 9th. I am not handling this very well at all. So yes I have become rather quiet. I am a quiet person to strangers to begin with but now sort of isolated myself from alot of people except maybe a handful.
In this letter it stated that now that I have reached godfather I am to good for other people. This is so far from the truth. I max out just about everyday. I bomb people that ask for help. I will HELP, but I won't bend over backwards to do it all for you. There are so many people that join contests, and exspect their friends to make them win without putting forth 100% of the effort themselfs. Now for those people I refuse to help anymore. We ALL have real friends on here that will help back in return if asked, and those are the ones I will bend over backwards for. Then we have our other friends, that only contact you when they need help. No comments no nothing. If I am bored then I will, but I won't bust my ass to help, sorry. Maybe a bitch cuz of this then so be it. Same thing with leveling. I have helped soooooooooo many people level, and when it was my time to make godfather, my top friends were all that helped. Imagine that also huh? So before you pass judgement on me maybe ask urself, how much of a friend have you been to me? This is a 50/50 sorta game. You give you get. I WILL not max out anymore on helping those that refuse to ever return the favor. I rate those who rate me, plus my daily friends in wich I try to keep up with. Fubar is not my life, and I am sorry if many think it should be. I try to keep myself busy to keep my mind off this and a few other things that has happend in the last few months. Yes my page remains open always, but I do have a life outside fubar. Imagine that! Sure we all love to level, get rated, and receive gifts just because. This is for fun, this is NOT LIFE. If yall wanna make fubar ur life, cool I won't pass judgement. But damn it don't pass judgement on me for fubar not being my life.
I am not here to show off my body, get perverts to add me to see naked pictures. I am not open like that, nor do I feel the net is a place for that. But hey if ur one of them, good for you. It is not for me. But because people have a habit of thinking my pictures are theirs and can just rip them, I have chosen to keep alot of them for friends. I am not talking funny pictures, quotes, etc...... I am talking MY PERSONAL PICTURES. Yes I have had many personal pictures ripped and salutes. Why? Hell if I know! But that I feel is plain dumb and very personal for someone to want them. I am not talking about friends that take them to show who their friends are or people that make tags. That doesn't bother me at all. It's fake people stealing pictures to make others think they r real.
I am not here either to hook up with anyone. If it happends it does, but that is not my purpose for being here. I joined to meet FRIENDS and to play the game. I have never mislead anyone to think other wise.
For those of you that added me in hopes to see naked pictures and thought adding me u would see this or receive it PLZ REMOVE ME. It won't happen now or ever. Save me the time of going through the list and just remove me. No hurt feelings on my part if you do.
Now back to the real reason I wrote this. I need some time to cope with my son leaving for 8 years. I will still rate, but sorry f I don't converse with yall.
To my true friends that don't judge me and accept me for me. Have a awesome day!
