Sinister 17's blog: "Sinister blogs"

What are friends really all about, to me they are there for you when the good times come and when the good times go, they are there when your sick and healthy, sad or happy, pissed, confused, scared, excited, out of control other than my wife whom I will always consider to be my best friend above all others and more, there is only one other person with whom I consider to be just as close to me as my wife is minus the benefits lol and that would be “Olga” 3 years ago when I was in the hospital the only people that visited me were the usual suspects My lovely wife my Mother and Father but out of all my friends the only one that took the time to show she cared was Olga. She didn’t have to show up to spend time with me or anything like that but she proved to me that she really valued our friendship and our bond, now I must warn you all she is also a spit fire when it comes to voicing her opinions on anything and many times she let’s her emotions get the best of her leaving many people hurt and confused in her wake “Me being one of them lol” but I never forget her heart, her soul, her values in life which is the reason I love her so much. She will stand up for you till the bitter end, stand by your side through all the shit that life throws your way and not budge an inch, I know that when the show that my team and I are working on finally becomes a success I will be celebrating that moment best with my best friend Olga the most, because through out it all we have been the one’s putting the most time into NPS and the show, dedicating countless hours to the business side as well as the investigations part of being who we are Paranormal researchers, team members have come and gone, been distracted by jobs, new friends and spotlight hogging but the one constant through out all this has been there “Olga”. Know this Olga you are all those wonderful things and more to me than you will ever know but today I dedicate this day as Olga day lol cause you deserve it, a day to thank you, laugh with you, laugh at you but most importantly show some love, thank you my best friend for being who you are and if you ever change “I’LL KICK YOUR ASS” I love you kid and don’t you ever forget it. P.S. I am posting a picture up on my "Sinister pic's" of Olga and I, so all my CT friends can see who i'm talking about. Your friend, Rich aka Sinister 17

I never really blog at all in fact I try not to because then people really get to see a side of me that I prefer to keep to myself but this time I will do so cause I have to get this off my chest, I’m a person that believes in love and believes that with love and understanding all things can be overcome but unfortunately there are some people out there that make it very difficult to even want to fight for those principles. With out going into detail someone who used to be in my life has recently hurt me in a very deep way and insulted my wife and I in telling us that we are less than nothing when It comes to being quality candidates for ever keeping a girlfriend, basically give up on being happy with our way of thinking and being true to ourselves, now this is directed to this person. “It’s not my fault that you lead a miserable life right now and are to afraid to make a choice that would have made you happy instead of continuing to leave a body count of broken hearts behind you simply because your to afraid to face up to your own fears. To those friends whom know what’s going on in my life and have been there for me, thank you but this pain has really gotten a hold of me in such a way that I will have to go for a little while and reflect, who knows maybe I am a jerk and insensitive as this person claims me to be “I don’t know” I’m lost, distraught and just tired of being who I am and lately I feel like who I am as of late is a doormat that people are more than willing to step all over and clean their shit of on, even some of my closest friends talk down to me and I just let it go simply because I want to keep the peace. Well for a while now I’m going to go away and not even bother anymore, I’m tired of being Mister nice guy, the one that everyone can talk to then gets discarded like yesterday’s news, sure I’m there for everyone but no ones there for me I guess that’s my roll in life, well it’s time for this door mat to take a break at least give me a chance to clean this shit off me so I can come back to be stepped on. Later, Rich aka Sinister 17