rikenuchi's blog: "She"

Well here I am, a little better than the day before Pages lay empty all twisted and torn Her I am picking myself up Just to knock myself back on the floor Every time I scream its over Always screaming nevermore Time after time I wish I heard you calling But wish as I may it never turns out right So I sit here wondering what to do Trying not to think so maybe I can write Still all these lines get filled With all my thoughts of you I know you’re out there somewhere Under these same stars as I They all shine down so bright And I cant help but wonder what your thinking In the middle of this summers night Now my thoughts drift towards heaven Just wondering what it’s like Wondering if I’ll make it there And if so will you be by my side Are lives go on and on With the day’s just ticking by I’ll wait and see what happens next In the middle of this summers night Now I’ll lay myself down in bed Hope I know will watch me until I fall asleep Who knows what will happen then When I cant tell what’s real Or just in my head

She say’s she’s gone She’s leaving in the morning She says she’s too tired to leave tonight As we lay here in silence And you know I can’t sleep I listen to you breath With the minutes ticking by so slow While my mind races on so fast I can’t help but pray for the light With you leaving Driving off Free for a new start It’s hard believing your over It’s not the first time you’ve said goodbye but With any luck it will be the last I’m tired I say I have to sleep too you know Because you see I’m wearing pretty thin Feeling as old as these jeans on my body All wore and tore to shreds Well she’s gone and I could blame it all on her But I wont Because I know it was my indifference That made all these things go wrong It’s so quiet here Without the expectation of your return It’s empty somehow The cars still go by Just like they always did before Over the tree line and just out of sight Out in the middle of this nowhere I wander thru the stars that fall thru the sky And you see I’m not laughing anymore But I feel I need to say Maybe things are better now With me still here and you going on your way You turn your head as you are leaving Looking at me thru this dirty window I wave as you smile, then your gone, your gone

What a fine day today Even though The rain that’s been falling Can’t seem to change me She said she wants me But I think I’d lose my mind Can’t you see I’m lost without you Can’t you see I’ve nothing but time Maybe there is something out there Out there waiting for me But I just can’t find the line To make this life Like the one that was left behind What a fine day today Even though All these empty spaces Thru all these empty spaces Make up this sad little rhym

She lay silently sleeping in the snow One Indiana winters day Such beautiful warm contrast She burns that way Pale in comparison Of the moons reflected light She dances wildly thru the fire The fire that burns all in sight The wind, the rain and the storms that rage thru the night She is all in Gods creation She is life Silently she lay dreaming In this bed by my side Never tiring of the days That rise endlessly with the tide She’s natural and she’s real With no stains running to deep The oceans and the seas She holds in her hands Their forever there For her alone to keep The sun, the moon and all the stars in the sky She is all that is wonderful She is the life I breathe