ChAoS CoNfUsIon's blog: "Serendipidy"

lying wrapped up in my sorrows i hear the rain come down if my tears were like the rain i would just lie here and drowned i'm missing you so badly my heart wrenches out in pain sometimes i think i feel you and i'm paralized with tears again sometimes just the faintest smell brings me back to you just to be beside you baby theres nothing i would'nt do i took our love for granted i was'nt sure just what we had- i'm so fucked up without you i need the truth so bad please just someone tell me will there be an us again or do i have to suffer with you only as my friend i wonder what your doing- and were you are today and i wonder when you see me if you will walk away i know its going to hurt when i look into your eyes especiallyif i see the love has just up and died my god oh how i need you your the one who knows me best and its only when i hear from you that i can finaly rest until then i'm wrapped up in my pain i'm drowning in my fear i'm so exhusted-YET I CRY ANOTHER TEAR.........

Fighting emotions that stand taller than I running away from the hurt avoiding the dreadful cry. calling your name but you're nowhere to be found scared, lost and alone...hurt bound. I loved you right...didn't I? I loved you right...didn't I? I LOVED YOU RIGHT...DIDN'T I? You laughed at me when I cried I opened myself to you and you lied you left me in a dreadful place never to return to this lonely and empty space I need to get out I need to be free, I need to run, I need to laugh, I need to love...BE ME!! You can't hurt me no more I've come too far I've won this battle, this dilemma, this war. I no longer call out your name expecting you to be found I'm no longer scared, lost, and alone....hurt bound

Captivated by the sky, I am impassioned, Wrapped in pure ecstasy. As the stars emits rays of sinless beauty. Showering the sky, I am fervent. Aroused by the beauty, my face luminous, Seduced by the artistry. My flesh, it glistens, as the air becomes sultry. Kissed by the breeze, I quiver. Engulfed by the moon, my body tenses, Pleasured by its vitality Euphoria engulfs me, and I will yearn fiercly. As the moon escapes from me. Subdued by the beauty, I will wait. Night is my passion. Lying beneath it vastness, a lost maiden. Desirous for more luscious beauty.