My heart is shattered

Jagged pieces on the floor

Internal compass broken

Wont tell me where to go

The dial just spins

Like my life out of control

Everywhere I turn

New perilous paths unfold

Lost and terrified 

Not a hand to hold

I stay to pick up pieces

Try to make my heart a whole

But the jagged pieces cut me 

The streams turn into ravines 

Drowning in my own blood 

I wonder will I make it

and is it as bad as it seems?

This is where the sad people go 

The ones who wander

The dampened souls

Here they congregate in misery 

Here in this place of blackened screens

Feigned gestures of heartfelt expression

The toils of a lackluster life from which we slumber

~A

malfunctional encephalon

useless grey sludge

damaged receptors 

cranium crud

neurotransmitters

misfire at will

muddled, befuddled

riddled to hell

dopamine slow travelling 

sick synaptic transmission 

brief moments euphoric

sharp sudden remission

serotonin standby

norepinephrine away

inane glial matter

take it away 

lobotomize me

i refuse to eat pills

sever my frontal lobe and cure all my ills

feels like static 

try not to panic

thoughts just race

no specific pace

fast then slow

the back again

self contained

mental whirlwind

emotions fade

in and out

going crazy 

without a doubt

spinning around

90 to nothing

i'd cling to anything

give me something

bring me to solid ground

something lost that i found

here i'll crumble 

where i fell

let me rest here i'm not well

down on the ground

don't pick me up

just hand me a broom

and i'll sweep my shit up